J_trustno1
MyPTSD Pro
...love, accept and be friendly to yourself?
I can easily believe in negative and hateful things I'm told than the positive things. I see positive comments about myself as lies and are just for condolences. Anything I want to achieve or find attractive in a potential partner, I tend to restrict myself and bully myself to the point that I don't deserve this or I am not allowed to achieve high. I feel guilty for my happiness whenever have any.
It's just hard to be happy and accepting yourself. I want to be normal again :(:cry:. I hate being my own enemy and putting myself down :( :cry:
I can easily believe in negative and hateful things I'm told than the positive things. I see positive comments about myself as lies and are just for condolences. Anything I want to achieve or find attractive in a potential partner, I tend to restrict myself and bully myself to the point that I don't deserve this or I am not allowed to achieve high. I feel guilty for my happiness whenever have any.
It's just hard to be happy and accepting yourself. I want to be normal again :(:cry:. I hate being my own enemy and putting myself down :( :cry: