SeanCharles
MyPTSD Pro
Okay,
I know the title of this thread may appear a bit sexist, that is not my intention. My intention is however realizing that I have been traumatized in the past by a woman who was trusted to take care of me, not abuse me as a child.
I should have seen red flags when I met with the Food Managers in 2008! I once again made a mistake that I made 8 years earlier by choosing to marry someone.
The exception to the many Alpha females in title in ways is one special alpha female who has been with me since before I started working who is not abusive in their authority. This special Alpha female shows me and has the years we've been together total loyalty and total and complete unconditional love. Whereas, the human alpha females I have to deal with outside of home are, after all respectfully human beings. While one alpha female I work with is not always as overbearing as two others, I realize that maybe I am seeing these human alpha females as a trigger. Whether or not they are intentionally in part because they don't know me fully, their authority over me still affects me as I am realizing that I still have a lot of trust issues with females in an authority role to work on and comes to terms with. I am in no way applying the females (staff) here to this, as I know that and understand, that we all can relate to each other.
In ways too, being fair here, Alpha males that I deal with while I had males cause trauma to me as well, are not as much as a trigger as woman in authority are. I am still trying to wrap my head around all of this issue as I am in many ways confused here.
Respectfully,
Sean/Geordie
I know the title of this thread may appear a bit sexist, that is not my intention. My intention is however realizing that I have been traumatized in the past by a woman who was trusted to take care of me, not abuse me as a child.
I should have seen red flags when I met with the Food Managers in 2008! I once again made a mistake that I made 8 years earlier by choosing to marry someone.
The exception to the many Alpha females in title in ways is one special alpha female who has been with me since before I started working who is not abusive in their authority. This special Alpha female shows me and has the years we've been together total loyalty and total and complete unconditional love. Whereas, the human alpha females I have to deal with outside of home are, after all respectfully human beings. While one alpha female I work with is not always as overbearing as two others, I realize that maybe I am seeing these human alpha females as a trigger. Whether or not they are intentionally in part because they don't know me fully, their authority over me still affects me as I am realizing that I still have a lot of trust issues with females in an authority role to work on and comes to terms with. I am in no way applying the females (staff) here to this, as I know that and understand, that we all can relate to each other.
In ways too, being fair here, Alpha males that I deal with while I had males cause trauma to me as well, are not as much as a trigger as woman in authority are. I am still trying to wrap my head around all of this issue as I am in many ways confused here.
Respectfully,
Sean/Geordie