singingyamada
New Here
Hello. I worked as a nurse in acute mental health for years, and it was mental health that gave me PTSD. I live in a place where everyone knows someone. I was case managing a young man who unexpectedly killed his friends father. It was handled badly and whilst the powers that be knew about it, no one bother to tell me until my clients dad rang me up and with the wail of a wounded animal told me what his son, my client had done. That was when I heard my brain crack.
I took time off work and the culture of nursing is "Don't be weak . Get back up on the horse" had me back at work after three months.But I struggled and struggled and finally after the constant blurred boundary of home and work (as we knew the victims family) and the constant unexpected shock of things related to this popping up( murder trial) I was shattered.
I took a week off, I walked into work and I was called into the office over something trivial and I thought it had happened again, that someone had died and this time they were going to tell me rather than let me find out and my brain actually broke. I have never worked since.
At first the workers compensation insurance paid me as they said it was my pre-exisiting anxiety that had been aggravated, but now they have stopped, because a psychiatrist they sent me to said any PTSD would have stopped once I left work.
Now I have to go and see a court appointed psychiatrist and I am really not coping.
I am going to be sitting in front of a stranger trying to prove to them that I am not;
a. A malingerer
b. That PTSD has significantly messed every thing up.
c. That there is an impairment, that my GP, 2 psychiatrists and a psychologist agree on and the only specialist who disagrees is the one the insurance company pays for.
d. And that this is PTSD , not my old buddy anxiety that I used to manage very well. The fact that I rattle at night with so many more and different medication should be proof of that.
Is there anyone who has had work related PTSD, because its feeling really lonely here in Australia. I have never been able to meet up with anyone who has been in the same position as me.
I took time off work and the culture of nursing is "Don't be weak . Get back up on the horse" had me back at work after three months.But I struggled and struggled and finally after the constant blurred boundary of home and work (as we knew the victims family) and the constant unexpected shock of things related to this popping up( murder trial) I was shattered.
I took a week off, I walked into work and I was called into the office over something trivial and I thought it had happened again, that someone had died and this time they were going to tell me rather than let me find out and my brain actually broke. I have never worked since.
At first the workers compensation insurance paid me as they said it was my pre-exisiting anxiety that had been aggravated, but now they have stopped, because a psychiatrist they sent me to said any PTSD would have stopped once I left work.
Now I have to go and see a court appointed psychiatrist and I am really not coping.
I am going to be sitting in front of a stranger trying to prove to them that I am not;
a. A malingerer
b. That PTSD has significantly messed every thing up.
c. That there is an impairment, that my GP, 2 psychiatrists and a psychologist agree on and the only specialist who disagrees is the one the insurance company pays for.
d. And that this is PTSD , not my old buddy anxiety that I used to manage very well. The fact that I rattle at night with so many more and different medication should be proof of that.
Is there anyone who has had work related PTSD, because its feeling really lonely here in Australia. I have never been able to meet up with anyone who has been in the same position as me.