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Thank you, @Mal Content for encouraging me to write about this.
I am currently doing recruiting for traveling nurses. I'm on the phone for 60-100 phone calls a day, trying to establish relationships with these nurses, check in on them, see how they're doing, and ultimately get them to do a 13-week assignment at a hospital through our agency.
Sounds simple enough, right? Well... my problem is that my abuser groomed me my whole childhood- waited until I was of age, then began forcing himself on me.
I tried to distance myself from him time and time again, but seeing as how he was "part of the family" I was too afraid/ashamed/embarrassed to end my relationship with him because, well, I'd have to explain to everyone why - and that was just too much for me.
The other thing that made it so hard was his constant follow up. His texts every morning.. "Just checking in" "wanted to see how you're doing" "when can we do dinner" etc.
Somehow I land a job where doing those things are my EXACT JOB DESCRIPTION!!! "Hi nurse xyz, just checking in, how are things, etc"
I desperately wanted him to stop pursuing me- but didn't have the courage/personality/ability to tell him to stop. Even if I would tell him pleasantly to back off, he wouldn't.
Now I don't want to put others in that situation. But my job literally depends on it.
(This also directly correlates to my fear of dating- but that's for a different forum at a different time...)
Any input/advice/sympathy would be much appreciated :)
I am currently doing recruiting for traveling nurses. I'm on the phone for 60-100 phone calls a day, trying to establish relationships with these nurses, check in on them, see how they're doing, and ultimately get them to do a 13-week assignment at a hospital through our agency.
Sounds simple enough, right? Well... my problem is that my abuser groomed me my whole childhood- waited until I was of age, then began forcing himself on me.
I tried to distance myself from him time and time again, but seeing as how he was "part of the family" I was too afraid/ashamed/embarrassed to end my relationship with him because, well, I'd have to explain to everyone why - and that was just too much for me.
The other thing that made it so hard was his constant follow up. His texts every morning.. "Just checking in" "wanted to see how you're doing" "when can we do dinner" etc.
Somehow I land a job where doing those things are my EXACT JOB DESCRIPTION!!! "Hi nurse xyz, just checking in, how are things, etc"
I desperately wanted him to stop pursuing me- but didn't have the courage/personality/ability to tell him to stop. Even if I would tell him pleasantly to back off, he wouldn't.
Now I don't want to put others in that situation. But my job literally depends on it.
(This also directly correlates to my fear of dating- but that's for a different forum at a different time...)
Any input/advice/sympathy would be much appreciated :)