Panda Bear
MyPTSD Pro
Lol, that's the plan anyway!
T and I have started to plan an exit strategy and it's looking like end of February 2017 will mark the end of our weekly work. That puts us at just 6wks shy of 5 solid years of work together :D
It's my choice how it ends and what I want things to look like. I'm going to visit 1x a month till summer and then fly solo till fall(October) and then pop back in just to check up and make sure I don't slide into the ugly anniversary months of Oct-Jan. But we will be ending our major hard work and the rest of the visits will be just to chat, unless something happens!! I am prepared for setbacks, they happen too. So while the plan is set, T has assured that he will make time for me and always allow me back. He's not leaving....
This is nerve wracking, happy, sad, mad, I feel a bit abandoned.....I've had a great tharspist! One guy, one try, one chance to trust and he stood by me for nearly 5yrs! It's been awesome, wild, hairy, scary and unreal.
Still, everyday I'll have to work hard to use my skills in order to stay well. Learn that I'm human and will slide backwards. PTSD will always live inside me, but it won't always have to dictate my life any longer. I'm the same scared little girl I was when I first walked into his office. Frightened at every turn, broken, sad and alone.
Anyways, just wanted to share. I'm scared.....but it's a good thing.
T and I have started to plan an exit strategy and it's looking like end of February 2017 will mark the end of our weekly work. That puts us at just 6wks shy of 5 solid years of work together :D
It's my choice how it ends and what I want things to look like. I'm going to visit 1x a month till summer and then fly solo till fall(October) and then pop back in just to check up and make sure I don't slide into the ugly anniversary months of Oct-Jan. But we will be ending our major hard work and the rest of the visits will be just to chat, unless something happens!! I am prepared for setbacks, they happen too. So while the plan is set, T has assured that he will make time for me and always allow me back. He's not leaving....
This is nerve wracking, happy, sad, mad, I feel a bit abandoned.....I've had a great tharspist! One guy, one try, one chance to trust and he stood by me for nearly 5yrs! It's been awesome, wild, hairy, scary and unreal.
Still, everyday I'll have to work hard to use my skills in order to stay well. Learn that I'm human and will slide backwards. PTSD will always live inside me, but it won't always have to dictate my life any longer. I'm the same scared little girl I was when I first walked into his office. Frightened at every turn, broken, sad and alone.
Anyways, just wanted to share. I'm scared.....but it's a good thing.