Now that i started my story or journal, i am flooded with thougths from back then. My symptoms are bad today. I know I need to do this, I have to. it is just so hard. i hope writing it all out in this manner is going to stop the constant memories. my traumas run together . I was so young. I remember a lot but I have also blocked out a lot. Welcome to my PTSD world. Just needed to vent!