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I keep on being so preoccupied that I am forgetting basic things I knew like forum etiquette and guidelines and things in my life that I need to remember and it is so embarrassing to be here once again. I really need to pay better attention and focus on what I am doing at any given moment.
But you can't just gently palm friends' cheeks by the back of your fingers, nor spread palms over their hearts in 'got you', nor cover the backs of their necks in a similar gesture, so 'I'm happy you called and words don't say' some more.
& When: Shite with this making myself forget. I keep forgetting how badly nonverbal younger me was & that speech was a skillset to learn.
When during crises, all of your symptoms flare up and return. But you know that you are not back to square one. When you defend against more pain with your friends, and are horrified.
When your phone will not stay on, and you flip the switch to self pity because you do not have the money to get a new phone, and ruminate for thirty minutes how f*cked up your life is, and then try charging the battery, and have a phone...:banghead:
When you get 'life's f*cked up' with broken tech quite very well.
When you keep writing a draft for two weeks, and scratch it every time.
FFS. I wasn't concrete in it. Had no dates, had initials of people, had just the little things they did or liked... too many details, apparently. Brains. :rolleyes::bag: