Been diagnosed with PTSD due to events from childhood. Went on through teen and adult relationships. But events fro. 2012 have left their wounds and now have triggers. Childhood emotional abuse and neglect. Only from mum. Soon learned at very young age to become a people pleaser. Now at 45, holding down good job, successful athlete, mum of 2, still get triggers. Husband caused alot of it. But how can you heal when your living g with the person that caused the final straw??? Confused if I love him or not. Tried to leave but emotions and guilt of feeling a bitch get the better of me. I truly do t k ow what I want. I do know I want the career I have and sport and animals.. Constantly feel lonely.