ILoveLife
MyPTSD Pro
I have a really bad resistance to being treated, some of it because I'm used to being the victim and its convenient, some of it because I've had a really hard time with Ts, pdocs, nurses, GPs, you name it.
This last T really screwed with my head. She first told me I don't have any mental illness, then told me I do but handle diagnoses poorly (not true btw), then implied that I needed her to function, but didn't give me any tools to handle myself.
And more, but let's leave it at that.
Previous T hit on me and was very unsafe in general.
Before him another T, during the time of one of my abuses, that didn't help me get out of the situation at all.
Before him a T I don't even remember his face of what was talked about.
There were also others in between, but never moved further than first session so they don't really count.
I'm now in a waiting list for a T my pdoc referred me to and I really need to deal with this resistance and at the same time be able to spot red flags.
I don't know how to approach this.
I don't want another failure.
Any insights ?
Thank you in advance.
This last T really screwed with my head. She first told me I don't have any mental illness, then told me I do but handle diagnoses poorly (not true btw), then implied that I needed her to function, but didn't give me any tools to handle myself.
And more, but let's leave it at that.
Previous T hit on me and was very unsafe in general.
Before him another T, during the time of one of my abuses, that didn't help me get out of the situation at all.
Before him a T I don't even remember his face of what was talked about.
There were also others in between, but never moved further than first session so they don't really count.
I'm now in a waiting list for a T my pdoc referred me to and I really need to deal with this resistance and at the same time be able to spot red flags.
I don't know how to approach this.
I don't want another failure.
Any insights ?
Thank you in advance.