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I think I am just looking for some people to relate really, because not telling people increases the sense of loniliness, but it is hard to share.
There are a fair few things I haven't told my therapist and I continue to struggle to share anything. I have been seeing her for 2.5 years and I haven't told her about child sexual abuse from an adult and also a young teenage boy. I was younger then 8 and then older then 10 at the time and remember being pretty sexualised. But I am not sure how far this was me exploring my sexulity as a child and how much it was me normalising the abuse.
Then there is the self harm, which stays with me to this today as I have to daily try and cover the scars. I did it a lot in my youth and on and off into early adulthood including a little bit when I first starting seeing her or even 6 months into seeing her. I said nothing then and say nothing now. I am starting to want to open up more rather then a complete objection to the possibility, but I am so overcome with shame and fear of rejection and judgement, the last thing I want to be seen as is a victium and all the assumptions this stuff comes with, but then I know I won't be able to process it unless I talk it through with someone.
I left the last session pretty triggered, but also agitated for not having said the stuff I wanted to say.
It would be good to hear people stories, perspectives etc.
There are a fair few things I haven't told my therapist and I continue to struggle to share anything. I have been seeing her for 2.5 years and I haven't told her about child sexual abuse from an adult and also a young teenage boy. I was younger then 8 and then older then 10 at the time and remember being pretty sexualised. But I am not sure how far this was me exploring my sexulity as a child and how much it was me normalising the abuse.
Then there is the self harm, which stays with me to this today as I have to daily try and cover the scars. I did it a lot in my youth and on and off into early adulthood including a little bit when I first starting seeing her or even 6 months into seeing her. I said nothing then and say nothing now. I am starting to want to open up more rather then a complete objection to the possibility, but I am so overcome with shame and fear of rejection and judgement, the last thing I want to be seen as is a victium and all the assumptions this stuff comes with, but then I know I won't be able to process it unless I talk it through with someone.
I left the last session pretty triggered, but also agitated for not having said the stuff I wanted to say.
It would be good to hear people stories, perspectives etc.