Roxy Radke
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I dont know where to even start with this. My boyfriend at the time was 2 years older than me and we had been dating for about 4-5 months I was 13 and he told me he wanted to try doing sexual things (over text) and I stupidly agreed (over text) I wasn't comfortable with it but I thought it was what he wanted. He came over to my house and we started kissing, he tried slipping his hand into my pants but I grabbed his hand and pulled it back up. He kept trying and after about the 10th time I gave up I was uncomfortable but I guess I didn't say no. The week after I just wanted to kiss and hang out nothing too sexual. He grabbed my hand and put it on his member I just rested it their awkwardly until he started moving my hand, it almost felt like. chore he put my hand down without any jocks on so I had to touch his member. It was awkward but I didn't really bring it up or say no. After this he tried asking me to do oral I guess I did agree in a way (over text) and then he tried getting it near my face I sat there for a couple of minutes unaware of what to do. I just shut my eyes and did as he asked, not even half way through I stopped he kept putting it in my face until he was done or happy with it. I said no trying to laugh it off but I felt really uncomfortable I said stop and he didn't he just kept going. I got used to it and I thought it was expected and its something I had to do. I was uncomfortable and scared I didn't want to ruin our relationship but now after the relationship has ended its all I can think about I feel dirty and disgusting. I feel like I'm squirming in my own skin.
someone please tell me what happened? I dont know what to call it? am I over exaggerating?
someone please tell me what happened? I dont know what to call it? am I over exaggerating?