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Dom Violence I feel lost in the life around me

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candibarb72

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I cant be the only one that feels lost in their life. Feels like I'm in a dream and I can't wake up.
It's not a bad dream but one that I have no control over. Maybe a lack of a better word, I guess. I have been diagnosed with PTSD with severe depression and anxiety. But this cant be my life, can it?
 
I'm in treatment, I have 2 therapists one who uses EMR. But I guess what Im saying is that I wore a mask for defense per say. And as I look at myself everyday I don't know if its the meds or me but I begin to question myself. If you can understand what I am trying to say. I know it is rather confusing. Some days I feel like ok I can do this and some days my mind is everywhere I don't want it to be.
 
It's a feeling of there being no direction and no reason to create any new direction. It seems I needed my ex to tell me how to live.
That's how I felt after I got out of my abusive relationship. I felt completely broken and that nothing mattered. I felt like that for years.

I think the only way to get out of it is basically to pretend that things do matter. Over time, after doing lots of things I really didn't feel like doing, I was able to find a few things that made a difference in my life, even if the rest of my life was broken and pointless. Then I found a few more things that I enjoyed, and then a few more, until one day I realized I had a pretty full life.

Keep working. Right now maybe everything sucks. That's normal. One day everything won't suck.
 
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