DinamoCalypso
New Here
:dontknow:
I have been with my husband for years, and we have had our share of difficulties, some my fault some his.
However I have come to a point that I no longer know what the right thing to do is.
Here is the background, maybe someone can help guide me, and I also appologise if this is not the correct forum to apply this in.
Since knowing my husband he's been a little more effort to manage, now of course that could have been the early stages of his PTSD however he was not officially diagnosed until this year. Things such as his sleep schedule, he can sleep for 16 hours and not feel rested, or stay up for 36 hours and not feel tired. Getting anywhere ontime was always a challenge. I managed all finances as it always seemed to be too much for him to handle and I figured that there are just some things that some people cannot handle or do, and left it at that.
We have not always been good for each other, I seem to have appeared to always look for a way out of our relationship, however it is now more complicated in that there are children involved.
Since he's stopped working all of the above has worsened. He sleep patterns are even more erratic, unless it is getting me to work on time arrival is not possible at all and finances has extended to include any type of paperwork. As well since he was also diagnosed with spinal arthritis at the same time, he can no longer do much physical activity, or even help me care for the baby safely.
The only help I recieve from him at this point is bottles, and on his good health days diaper changings, as well as occasional dishes.
Tidying and laundry are completed by me and our 7 year old.
So things being as bad as they are, I have had a harder time handling anything remotely stressful, I come home and glue myself to my computer because at least there I do not need to think about that which there is no known cure for.
I contemplate suicide, offing my husband or just disappearing, never to be heard from again. Knowing however that these are not options, I can't but help but wonder if it's time for me to leave this relationship before I end up as ineffective as my husband from the sheer volume of stress in my life? Isn't it better for the kids not to lose both parents?
If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know as I am desparate and my anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds are no longer strong enough to deal with this on top of my normal symptoms.
I have been with my husband for years, and we have had our share of difficulties, some my fault some his.
However I have come to a point that I no longer know what the right thing to do is.
Here is the background, maybe someone can help guide me, and I also appologise if this is not the correct forum to apply this in.
Since knowing my husband he's been a little more effort to manage, now of course that could have been the early stages of his PTSD however he was not officially diagnosed until this year. Things such as his sleep schedule, he can sleep for 16 hours and not feel rested, or stay up for 36 hours and not feel tired. Getting anywhere ontime was always a challenge. I managed all finances as it always seemed to be too much for him to handle and I figured that there are just some things that some people cannot handle or do, and left it at that.
We have not always been good for each other, I seem to have appeared to always look for a way out of our relationship, however it is now more complicated in that there are children involved.
Since he's stopped working all of the above has worsened. He sleep patterns are even more erratic, unless it is getting me to work on time arrival is not possible at all and finances has extended to include any type of paperwork. As well since he was also diagnosed with spinal arthritis at the same time, he can no longer do much physical activity, or even help me care for the baby safely.
The only help I recieve from him at this point is bottles, and on his good health days diaper changings, as well as occasional dishes.
Tidying and laundry are completed by me and our 7 year old.
So things being as bad as they are, I have had a harder time handling anything remotely stressful, I come home and glue myself to my computer because at least there I do not need to think about that which there is no known cure for.
I contemplate suicide, offing my husband or just disappearing, never to be heard from again. Knowing however that these are not options, I can't but help but wonder if it's time for me to leave this relationship before I end up as ineffective as my husband from the sheer volume of stress in my life? Isn't it better for the kids not to lose both parents?
If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know as I am desparate and my anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds are no longer strong enough to deal with this on top of my normal symptoms.
