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Brought up in my last post... But no relevence to it as a subject.
The man who fixed the ultimate of a f* up in tats some bozo did... Obviously in training and the shop should have told me he was a newbie. I have never let any "in training" touch me. It was my tribute to motherhood and all I had done was the outline. Tribal one both sides of the back of my hip. In the center on my lower back (I'd say small but not a small area) I had my sign looks like an H of sorts. One sign for each of my kids in a smaller version around it.
The shop had tried to say I jumped or flinching. I have two big very detailed tats on the front. One from belly button slightly down my thing EDIT - that was supposed to say THIGH! on one side and goes over my hip bone. It is big. The other almost as large and goes over my bone and on my belly too (looks like murals when pregnant). This new guy said they were full of shit. He said he could tell by my others' details and location you don't move and you certainly do not flinch. And after he did the repairs it was confirmed and he said I was his favorite type to work on... did not wiggle or bitch.
Reasons of mine, out of curiosity I had an itty bitty heart put there on hip to see if I could handle it. When the evil ex saw it he flipped out on me hard. This was when I was gathering my nerve to leave. I went out and spent a few hundred bucks and had the itty bitty heart covered... With the huge ass one and chose it because it was pretty. But the point of that one was standing up to him and he could not take it away no matter what he did. The unicorn, clouds and moon... Just pretty, but it represented defiance in him just to have it.
My second was a beautiful lion hiding behind Orchids. I used to work in a family owned Orchid shop. I am behind it waiting to emerge. Lot of problems with that side of family. At that time I felt trapped, I wish I had one of it leaping over the flowers now as it has changed.
Third across my back again motherhood.
The place on the side of my hip... Will be #4 or 5. I have felt tied down and chained by what had been undiagnosed for so long. But now I have felt like this before PTSD being "official". This imaige has been in my head since they had diagnosed Panic Disorder. None of my tats have color.
Anthony's thinking and pointing out B&W thinking made me think of my tats all being black with no color. So it has influenced one detail of the tat in mind. The woman potrayed will have my hair color a dark red / auburn. The woman in the tat is me and how I feel with this. So bound with chains on her knees unable to rise and head hung low and nude. Sums it up pretty well for me. I still feel like that a lot. I just hope the man drawing it can get the image to match what is in my head. It is designed in my head but to draw it another thing. I want it to protray dispair, helpless, and pain.
When I heal as much as I can, and feel I have, it will be her standing proud with her head high and broken chains. Nudity there, don't know. Nudity represents me having to expose so much of myself to heal. Don't know how long it will take for me to feel I am ready for it, but until then that spot on the side of my other hip will remain blank. And I think I have to be there to know exactly what I want as far as the smallest details. Maybe an white flowing gown. Sure I have plenty of time to see it like I see this one.
But the gathering of it all to make it blend is just going to take a talented artist to make it look like it flows in a belt... And leave the blank for when I am ready to feel I made it.
I am looking into a braclet. I have never put a tat where it could be not be concealed simply dressing. But I am having hubs sign added (he is unaware) and in the open. On the same side I wear my wedding band. The guy stenciled something femenine to go around. Have a piece of him/and not give a rats ass of how others see me without knowing me anymore. Tats are part of me and I am done hiding it. It is to be put on at no charge when I return to make sure my back does not need touching up. Nice gift from the guy.
Overall it is sore and very bruised. And FYI... when you get a tat done over another one that may have raised scars like part of mine did it hurts like a bitch! And swells up fast!
How about ya'll with tats? What do you have and why?
The man who fixed the ultimate of a f* up in tats some bozo did... Obviously in training and the shop should have told me he was a newbie. I have never let any "in training" touch me. It was my tribute to motherhood and all I had done was the outline. Tribal one both sides of the back of my hip. In the center on my lower back (I'd say small but not a small area) I had my sign looks like an H of sorts. One sign for each of my kids in a smaller version around it.
The shop had tried to say I jumped or flinching. I have two big very detailed tats on the front. One from belly button slightly down my thing EDIT - that was supposed to say THIGH! on one side and goes over my hip bone. It is big. The other almost as large and goes over my bone and on my belly too (looks like murals when pregnant). This new guy said they were full of shit. He said he could tell by my others' details and location you don't move and you certainly do not flinch. And after he did the repairs it was confirmed and he said I was his favorite type to work on... did not wiggle or bitch.
Reasons of mine, out of curiosity I had an itty bitty heart put there on hip to see if I could handle it. When the evil ex saw it he flipped out on me hard. This was when I was gathering my nerve to leave. I went out and spent a few hundred bucks and had the itty bitty heart covered... With the huge ass one and chose it because it was pretty. But the point of that one was standing up to him and he could not take it away no matter what he did. The unicorn, clouds and moon... Just pretty, but it represented defiance in him just to have it.
My second was a beautiful lion hiding behind Orchids. I used to work in a family owned Orchid shop. I am behind it waiting to emerge. Lot of problems with that side of family. At that time I felt trapped, I wish I had one of it leaping over the flowers now as it has changed.
Third across my back again motherhood.
The place on the side of my hip... Will be #4 or 5. I have felt tied down and chained by what had been undiagnosed for so long. But now I have felt like this before PTSD being "official". This imaige has been in my head since they had diagnosed Panic Disorder. None of my tats have color.
Anthony's thinking and pointing out B&W thinking made me think of my tats all being black with no color. So it has influenced one detail of the tat in mind. The woman potrayed will have my hair color a dark red / auburn. The woman in the tat is me and how I feel with this. So bound with chains on her knees unable to rise and head hung low and nude. Sums it up pretty well for me. I still feel like that a lot. I just hope the man drawing it can get the image to match what is in my head. It is designed in my head but to draw it another thing. I want it to protray dispair, helpless, and pain.
When I heal as much as I can, and feel I have, it will be her standing proud with her head high and broken chains. Nudity there, don't know. Nudity represents me having to expose so much of myself to heal. Don't know how long it will take for me to feel I am ready for it, but until then that spot on the side of my other hip will remain blank. And I think I have to be there to know exactly what I want as far as the smallest details. Maybe an white flowing gown. Sure I have plenty of time to see it like I see this one.
But the gathering of it all to make it blend is just going to take a talented artist to make it look like it flows in a belt... And leave the blank for when I am ready to feel I made it.
I am looking into a braclet. I have never put a tat where it could be not be concealed simply dressing. But I am having hubs sign added (he is unaware) and in the open. On the same side I wear my wedding band. The guy stenciled something femenine to go around. Have a piece of him/and not give a rats ass of how others see me without knowing me anymore. Tats are part of me and I am done hiding it. It is to be put on at no charge when I return to make sure my back does not need touching up. Nice gift from the guy.
Overall it is sore and very bruised. And FYI... when you get a tat done over another one that may have raised scars like part of mine did it hurts like a bitch! And swells up fast!
How about ya'll with tats? What do you have and why?