Recovery4Me
MyPTSD Pro
Within my area and my residence of an large skyscraper of 160 units, daily COVID noncompliance situations exposes us all. We are located in a large county situation where a hotbed of Covid Cases are notoriously reported & still rising. Three postal codes nearby, deaths sear into those undocumented communities that tirelessly serve as essential to agriculture while having little access to health care. Covid is taking toll disproportionately as several in my daily path flaunt “Me First” entitlement of noncompliance of masking as well as space proximity.
For 8 months now, I have witnessed a promenade of unmasked transient or homeless as major fires flushed them into relocation. It is the same privileged false-thinking ideology among the same sector of race. It appears an almost imbedded psychosis here with voiced objections based on their entitlement often shouting ‘white‘ among their rhetoric. Because many people of all races are confronting local transients as well as residents to wear mask, (volunteers handing out mask, ect., agencies engaging for change of dampening the contagions of COVID-19) ... the unmasked react heavily to civil request with major civil unrest resulting in further destruction.
I am not doing as well as I would like managing my choice of reactions when unmasked residents force their way into the small elevator that I am on. I have made several proactive choices over the months to avoid confrontation, worked hard on stifling my initial knee-jerk mouth, jabbered to my therapist, building managers, police, ect. (all the right stuff). Yet now, today, I am exceedingly tired of people placing me at exposure risk. It feels like abuse by bullies who repeat almost the same lemming-mantra despite our laws and the harsh reality of too many deaths within our area. Anger is taking it’s due. But perhaps the greatest casualties fall on everyone’s mental health, spirit and life as the divide widens.
For 8 months now, I have witnessed a promenade of unmasked transient or homeless as major fires flushed them into relocation. It is the same privileged false-thinking ideology among the same sector of race. It appears an almost imbedded psychosis here with voiced objections based on their entitlement often shouting ‘white‘ among their rhetoric. Because many people of all races are confronting local transients as well as residents to wear mask, (volunteers handing out mask, ect., agencies engaging for change of dampening the contagions of COVID-19) ... the unmasked react heavily to civil request with major civil unrest resulting in further destruction.
I am not doing as well as I would like managing my choice of reactions when unmasked residents force their way into the small elevator that I am on. I have made several proactive choices over the months to avoid confrontation, worked hard on stifling my initial knee-jerk mouth, jabbered to my therapist, building managers, police, ect. (all the right stuff). Yet now, today, I am exceedingly tired of people placing me at exposure risk. It feels like abuse by bullies who repeat almost the same lemming-mantra despite our laws and the harsh reality of too many deaths within our area. Anger is taking it’s due. But perhaps the greatest casualties fall on everyone’s mental health, spirit and life as the divide widens.