Cannonl3all
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I'm going through the hardest breakup of my life. T and I have been together for almost 4 years. He and I are in our early 30s. Both of us met when his little girl was 2, and my little boy was 3. He's been there through a long high conflict custody case to win my son from the last relationahip I was in. He was my protector, and helped me feel confident and self assured...
I was recently diagnosed with BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder), and Bipolar II Disorder 4 months ago. I've been in 2 failed marriages. As a female combat veteran, that's not unheard of. With my diagnosis however, it makes much more sense to me now. Both of my ex husbands were narcissists. Neither of them-actually, none of the men in my life loved me the way my recent "ex fiance" does.
I broke his heart. We are both Army combat vets with our own issues. His dad killed himself (A vietnam vet) while he was in Afghanistan. He conquered a meth addiction 6 years ago. Hes been in way Crazier relationships. Way more issues than what we have, or had...
I've broken up with him Friday the 13th. This was the day before his first Bodybuilding Competition. I felt that week coming up to it, I was totally discarded. He was cold. He and I live apart. He decided to move in a 3 bdrm with his Narc mom. He promised me a 3 bdrm for us and the kids, but told his mom he we were going to live in a 4 bedroom with her. So I left the week I found out and have lived with my parents 4 months since then. Short story long, I asked him to take me back the same day, or night I wrote him our break up letter.. I said it was up to him. I called, texted, and he still didnt reach out to me after his competition was done, (Due to covid there were no guests allowed). I texted the screenshots I took of him while it was his turn to be live on that stage. Still... No answer.
He's also an addict, and he recently had a relapse. I was afraid he was avoidong me because he was going to use cocaine again. I texted him, "Are you okay? Are you feeling 'itchy?' I had a dream that you used during or after your competition, (YES this is true) and I'm worried about you. Am I going to see you today? Will you take me back?"
He responded,
"Didn't you break up with me yesterday?"
That was it. I had 1 minute of clarity to type, "I understand. We are broken up. I am blocking your number, and facebook."
He's said all the right things and promised to change and get help. Everything ive wanted to hear. Said he is done being a boy. He said he's going to kick his mom to the curb. He wanted me to know how regretful and sorry he was... Im scared to believe him.
Im seeing 2 therapists, just bought a subscription to better help. I want him and I to find peace. Last thing I said to him.
"I need emotionally stability. Until I find it, please give me space.." Something like that.
"I'll do whatever makes you happy" was his answer.
I was recently diagnosed with BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder), and Bipolar II Disorder 4 months ago. I've been in 2 failed marriages. As a female combat veteran, that's not unheard of. With my diagnosis however, it makes much more sense to me now. Both of my ex husbands were narcissists. Neither of them-actually, none of the men in my life loved me the way my recent "ex fiance" does.
I broke his heart. We are both Army combat vets with our own issues. His dad killed himself (A vietnam vet) while he was in Afghanistan. He conquered a meth addiction 6 years ago. Hes been in way Crazier relationships. Way more issues than what we have, or had...
I've broken up with him Friday the 13th. This was the day before his first Bodybuilding Competition. I felt that week coming up to it, I was totally discarded. He was cold. He and I live apart. He decided to move in a 3 bdrm with his Narc mom. He promised me a 3 bdrm for us and the kids, but told his mom he we were going to live in a 4 bedroom with her. So I left the week I found out and have lived with my parents 4 months since then. Short story long, I asked him to take me back the same day, or night I wrote him our break up letter.. I said it was up to him. I called, texted, and he still didnt reach out to me after his competition was done, (Due to covid there were no guests allowed). I texted the screenshots I took of him while it was his turn to be live on that stage. Still... No answer.
He's also an addict, and he recently had a relapse. I was afraid he was avoidong me because he was going to use cocaine again. I texted him, "Are you okay? Are you feeling 'itchy?' I had a dream that you used during or after your competition, (YES this is true) and I'm worried about you. Am I going to see you today? Will you take me back?"
He responded,
"Didn't you break up with me yesterday?"
That was it. I had 1 minute of clarity to type, "I understand. We are broken up. I am blocking your number, and facebook."
He's said all the right things and promised to change and get help. Everything ive wanted to hear. Said he is done being a boy. He said he's going to kick his mom to the curb. He wanted me to know how regretful and sorry he was... Im scared to believe him.
Im seeing 2 therapists, just bought a subscription to better help. I want him and I to find peace. Last thing I said to him.
"I need emotionally stability. Until I find it, please give me space.." Something like that.
"I'll do whatever makes you happy" was his answer.