I'm not sure how to explain this since i'm not sure if it was a dream or a memory. I've always have really realistic dreams that used to be heavy influenced by stuff I saw on tv, i hope this was one of those cases, but i'll talk about this like it was real. I think one of my brothers abused me when I was about 10 years old and he was around 14 or 15. It has been about 9 years and the memories come around my memory once in a while, but i think i have blocked most of it, since i only remember(again, im not sure if dream or reality)been touched once, but i remember playing lots of hide and seek with him and hiding in his room(even though before we didnt have much of a relationship), crying multiple times to my mom because he "tickled me too much"( and i didnt like people tickling me)
I want to think it was an awful dream but how else can i explain the fact that i hate when men touch me, even if i trust them? And if it was real the what the hell i am supposed to do?? I can't imagine facing him or telling my parents, because what could they do? What if he denies it?? I'm writing here but i don't really think i'll ever have answers .
Sorry if something is wrote wrong, english is not my first language, and thank you for reading all this.
I want to think it was an awful dream but how else can i explain the fact that i hate when men touch me, even if i trust them? And if it was real the what the hell i am supposed to do?? I can't imagine facing him or telling my parents, because what could they do? What if he denies it?? I'm writing here but i don't really think i'll ever have answers .
Sorry if something is wrote wrong, english is not my first language, and thank you for reading all this.