Lost and Broken
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I recently reconnected with a man I went to high school with. He lives out of state but we talked pretty much every day sometimes all day long. He told me about his ptsd, but didn’t go into a lot of detail. I told him I didn’t know much about his condition and because he seemed like he was handling things really well I didn’t do much research. He came into visit me about a month or so later. We had an amazing time, we talked and really connected with each other. A week later he told me he tried to trust me but he couldn’t, we weren’t a match and then he deleted me. I waited a week or so and contacted him. He seemed fine, he said he still liked me and enjoyed talking to me. We agreed to keep it as friends because he was having a hard time with being in a relationship. I was fine with that. We talked for several more days and then he vanished again. This has been going on for months. 10 to be exact. He will be completely into me one minute, sweet, compassionate and then will start saying off the wall things and vanish. He always seemed down on himself. He thought he was this horrible person and said I deserved better because he wasn’t “that”. I would reassure him that he didn’t need to be anything for me and I never asked him to be more than a friend. It seemed to stress him out if we talked as if we were dating, so I was careful not to talk like we were. Fast forward to a month ago. I reached out to him to see how he was , after talking for a while he told me it was safe to think he was still interested, and he was making plans to come for a visit. Next day he started saying off the wall things again and then blocked me. Several weeks went by and I sent him an email to his work because I don’t know how else to reach him. No reply.. I waited a week and decided to give him a call at his work. I told him I was worried about him. I apologized for things I “could’ve” said wrong in the past. I have no idea who I was talking to because it wasn’t him. He was so mad and cold to me. He said that sending him an email and then calling him was over the top and I was being pushy. Pushy?? we’ve been talking for the past 10 months, and a couple weeks before that he told me he was still interested. Ugh!! I apologized for calling and told him I didn’t mean to stress him out. I also told him how much I cared about him, and was confused by his actions. He said we both needed to move on and then hung up on me. No goodbye or have a wonderful life, just hung up. I’ve spent the last year proving to him that I am who I say I am, showing him love and support and treats me like I’m a stranger. I haven’t heard from him since. I’m very worried and heartbroken. I have feelings for him and I don’t know what to do. Could someone please give me some advice?