Freddyt
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So I see a pattern in my behaviour that I need to come to grips with.
I go out. Do stuff. Do too much and whether I react well or not so well I overdo it for the day.
If I get reactive its already too late and things are already wrong. I know I am withdrawing and my world shrinks and I catasrophize the situation, and it's just bad. Autopilot kicks in and I just need to get home. It will be rough the next few days.
If I don't get reactive I go sailing along happily until about 3 am when I realize I'm probably not getting much sleep that night and I overdid it. Again a few days getting settled back down.
When I lost my eye I just wanted to do everything everyone else did, play all the sports, be like everyone else. Now that attitude is wreaking havok as I go charging in when I probably shouldn't.
So how do you know when enough is enough on any given day?
I go out. Do stuff. Do too much and whether I react well or not so well I overdo it for the day.
If I get reactive its already too late and things are already wrong. I know I am withdrawing and my world shrinks and I catasrophize the situation, and it's just bad. Autopilot kicks in and I just need to get home. It will be rough the next few days.
If I don't get reactive I go sailing along happily until about 3 am when I realize I'm probably not getting much sleep that night and I overdid it. Again a few days getting settled back down.
When I lost my eye I just wanted to do everything everyone else did, play all the sports, be like everyone else. Now that attitude is wreaking havok as I go charging in when I probably shouldn't.
So how do you know when enough is enough on any given day?