SaintGeorgeNDragon
New Here
Hello.
I'm here because I'm finding it unusually difficult to keep pretending that I'm okay.
Like I can't/won't find the reset button for my mind that gives me enough time to prepare my skillet and continue buzzing away with the rest of the bees.
It's never been this bad. And it's glaringly happening in front of people now. Before I can feel it coming on and I can choose to deal with it in that moment or save it for home.
Now, like I said, its happening all the time whether I am alone or not. Only that when I'm alone, it's much worse.
I'm undiagnosed.
I feel strongly that I have cptsd.
I'm here because I need to try something different because I'm in unknown mental territory. I'm so, so exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
It's only by the grace of God that I can find peace and shelter.
This is the first time I've posted/shared/spoken about what I'm going through and what I have gone through.
I don't have any expectations. I don't want to burden or become dependent. I just need another person to momentarily reply. I would appreciate it very much. Thank you.
I'm here because I'm finding it unusually difficult to keep pretending that I'm okay.
Like I can't/won't find the reset button for my mind that gives me enough time to prepare my skillet and continue buzzing away with the rest of the bees.
It's never been this bad. And it's glaringly happening in front of people now. Before I can feel it coming on and I can choose to deal with it in that moment or save it for home.
Now, like I said, its happening all the time whether I am alone or not. Only that when I'm alone, it's much worse.
I'm undiagnosed.
I feel strongly that I have cptsd.
I'm here because I need to try something different because I'm in unknown mental territory. I'm so, so exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
It's only by the grace of God that I can find peace and shelter.
This is the first time I've posted/shared/spoken about what I'm going through and what I have gone through.
I don't have any expectations. I don't want to burden or become dependent. I just need another person to momentarily reply. I would appreciate it very much. Thank you.