PTSDisaster
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Helloo,
It's been a while that I've been here. I've had quite a good time the past few months. I got a job from home and made it to become a teamlead, very happy that I can finally work 100% from home:)
I've been going to the store frequently (I couldn't do this because I have major anxiety for coming outside) and suddenly it all crashed. I almost can't do anything anymore. This frustrates me a lot and my therapist also told me this type of exposure therapy wasn't good because it didn't work. I've been shopping for half a year weekly, my T told me it was not an exposure that got me better but I just managed to 'survive' the time i spent in the store.
Since my anxiety is back again, I am pumped with adrenaline and it made me wonder; does adrenaline build up in your system? For example; if I get adrenaline for a week every morning, will it get worse and worse if there's no way to work it off?
I bought a hometrainer yesterday so I can start exercising at home to make the adrenaline go away and I hope this helps. I even get anxiety when I have to attend a call with 1 employee now while this still is from home. Videocalls (except with my therapist) scare me a lot and make me vomit/feel like I'm going to pass out.
My T and I had some breakthroughs the last sessions because it's impossible to work at my trauma's. We discovered that my fathers narcissism is way more triggering and I carry the shame my father had. That's also what I'm most afraid of in public/videocalls that I will have to vomit and someone will see me being vulnerable and that shame is overwhelming. I think the thoughts of getting anxiety actually give me anxiety.
Anyone familiar with lots of adrenaline and agoraphobia?
It's been a while that I've been here. I've had quite a good time the past few months. I got a job from home and made it to become a teamlead, very happy that I can finally work 100% from home:)
I've been going to the store frequently (I couldn't do this because I have major anxiety for coming outside) and suddenly it all crashed. I almost can't do anything anymore. This frustrates me a lot and my therapist also told me this type of exposure therapy wasn't good because it didn't work. I've been shopping for half a year weekly, my T told me it was not an exposure that got me better but I just managed to 'survive' the time i spent in the store.
Since my anxiety is back again, I am pumped with adrenaline and it made me wonder; does adrenaline build up in your system? For example; if I get adrenaline for a week every morning, will it get worse and worse if there's no way to work it off?
I bought a hometrainer yesterday so I can start exercising at home to make the adrenaline go away and I hope this helps. I even get anxiety when I have to attend a call with 1 employee now while this still is from home. Videocalls (except with my therapist) scare me a lot and make me vomit/feel like I'm going to pass out.
My T and I had some breakthroughs the last sessions because it's impossible to work at my trauma's. We discovered that my fathers narcissism is way more triggering and I carry the shame my father had. That's also what I'm most afraid of in public/videocalls that I will have to vomit and someone will see me being vulnerable and that shame is overwhelming. I think the thoughts of getting anxiety actually give me anxiety.
Anyone familiar with lots of adrenaline and agoraphobia?