jstone45lc
New Here
Hi everyone,
I'm new here. I've been suffering with CPTSD for years and didn't know it. Recently diagnose in the last few months. I'm a 24 yr 911 Dispatcher. I have said before I've heard it all, but that's not true. I hear more strange and troubling stuff everyday. I'm so tired, I forgot my meds today. I want to throw up. I didn't want to work another 12 hr shift today, but here I am. The sad part about it is. no one will listen to me. They all know about my PTSD and won't let me take off. I'm out of sick days.
My wife isn't any help. One minute she's all about, "Oh you've had a rough day, why don't you rest." the next minute, "I realize you had a rough shift, but the laundry needs done"
I've started the retirement process. That takes forever. I can only talk to family and friends so much, before they start turning away. I have a good therapist though.
I can't take the yelling anymore. even the sirens are starting to bother me.
Physically I'm falling apart too. I don't know anything else to do, except put in the hands of the Lord Jesus.
I'm new here. I've been suffering with CPTSD for years and didn't know it. Recently diagnose in the last few months. I'm a 24 yr 911 Dispatcher. I have said before I've heard it all, but that's not true. I hear more strange and troubling stuff everyday. I'm so tired, I forgot my meds today. I want to throw up. I didn't want to work another 12 hr shift today, but here I am. The sad part about it is. no one will listen to me. They all know about my PTSD and won't let me take off. I'm out of sick days.
My wife isn't any help. One minute she's all about, "Oh you've had a rough day, why don't you rest." the next minute, "I realize you had a rough shift, but the laundry needs done"
I've started the retirement process. That takes forever. I can only talk to family and friends so much, before they start turning away. I have a good therapist though.
I can't take the yelling anymore. even the sirens are starting to bother me.
Physically I'm falling apart too. I don't know anything else to do, except put in the hands of the Lord Jesus.