Hello, I'm 42 with a beautiful 6 year old son. I'm waiting to have a formal diagnosis of cptsd so I can access the help I need. I started dating again 6 months ago. I recently met someone I really care about. I stopped the relationship repeatedly despite the fact I really liked being with him. As a consequence he has said he only wants to be friends. I wondered if anyone else does this? Runs away when they feel pleasure and happiness? Attraction to someone is terrifying to me.