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Undiagnosed New member- does anyone else run away from love?

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sozzle

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Hello, I'm 42 with a beautiful 6 year old son. I'm waiting to have a formal diagnosis of cptsd so I can access the help I need. I started dating again 6 months ago. I recently met someone I really care about. I stopped the relationship repeatedly despite the fact I really liked being with him. As a consequence he has said he only wants to be friends. I wondered if anyone else does this? Runs away when they feel pleasure and happiness? Attraction to someone is terrifying to me.
 
Welcome to the community! 😎

I wondered if anyone else does this? Runs away when they feel pleasure and happiness? Attraction to someone is terrifying to me.
It’s incredibly common, with PTSD. In a lot of different ways, for a lot of different reasons. But? Bottom line, all relationships are stress (good stress, bad stress, it all fill the Stress Cup, needing to be managed somehow); and regardless of our individual personalities, & trauma histories, & experiences that shape how our relationships are effected? PTSD is notoriously hard on ‘em.

My own ways & means look different than yours, and have evolved over the years, but I’m still 9 different kinds of gun shy.
 
hello @sozzle. welcome to the forum.

it is normal-for-me and not just romantic love. i find it difficult to trust anyone who is crazy enough to love --or even admire-- someone like me. i ran away from parental love for the sake of survival and have been running ever since. friends, lovers, children, admirers. . . name the love and my hypervigilance kicks into overdrive. the good news is that i have learned how to ply therapy tools to the hypervigilance and how to turn around to make amends. i'm still running but i consider it solid progress that i am no longer throwing proverbial babies out with the bathwater.

but that is me and every case is unique.

steadying support while you sort your own case. welcome aboard. i hope you find stabilizing companionship here.
 
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