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Well, I had things gain too much momentum that we were headed to hospital time again tonight. So enter the damn drugs. But coming to a calmer point (I did not take enough to knock all symptoms out this time, just enough to slow down and gather my thoughts a little).
It dawned on me one reason (beyond overwhelmed) I am having such issues is new symptoms that I guess I could not gather well enough on my own until now is a major contributor. I have found when they gain momentum I will suddenly feel all out shit faced drunk. Slur, stumble, puke and the whole 9 yards without a drop of alcohol ever being near me. Like someone just lined up a bar of shots and I just downed 10.
Took the meds when the "drunk" feeling came on real hard and I started the freaking out phase (I had anxiety attacks all day per the last two weeks). Once I got the pill in it was before the stumbling and the rest. After the pill the slurring started. Then came the falling into walls. Shortly that all cleared up when meds kicked in and got it back in hand before the puking.
So I guess this means I get to "relearn" with my new symptoms of attacks. I noticed a pattern though. I always get something new and improved. I have to go back to square one and do it all over. Last time was the choking on my tongue and loss of swallow reflex, luckily that one clicked fast and was quick to work on it. I still get all the run of the mill symptoms with it but my mind seems to act like "OK, this is not scaring the living shit out of her anymore so what can we add?"
At least I am recognizing it. Took long enough but I got the tools and time to get to work... Again.
Anyone else get the body and mind pulling new tricks out of the bag once you feel you are back in control? I swear eventually these new tricks have got to run out.
It dawned on me one reason (beyond overwhelmed) I am having such issues is new symptoms that I guess I could not gather well enough on my own until now is a major contributor. I have found when they gain momentum I will suddenly feel all out shit faced drunk. Slur, stumble, puke and the whole 9 yards without a drop of alcohol ever being near me. Like someone just lined up a bar of shots and I just downed 10.
Took the meds when the "drunk" feeling came on real hard and I started the freaking out phase (I had anxiety attacks all day per the last two weeks). Once I got the pill in it was before the stumbling and the rest. After the pill the slurring started. Then came the falling into walls. Shortly that all cleared up when meds kicked in and got it back in hand before the puking.
So I guess this means I get to "relearn" with my new symptoms of attacks. I noticed a pattern though. I always get something new and improved. I have to go back to square one and do it all over. Last time was the choking on my tongue and loss of swallow reflex, luckily that one clicked fast and was quick to work on it. I still get all the run of the mill symptoms with it but my mind seems to act like "OK, this is not scaring the living shit out of her anymore so what can we add?"
At least I am recognizing it. Took long enough but I got the tools and time to get to work... Again.
Anyone else get the body and mind pulling new tricks out of the bag once you feel you are back in control? I swear eventually these new tricks have got to run out.