Thank you for this...
A few nights ago I was trying to fall asleep and I couldn't stop thinking about this. My mind was wandering to different memories of my childhood, sort of filtering as far back as I could go with events that occurred with different people. I experienced something really...
I dont know. He and many of my family relatives are messed up. Most if not all struggle with some sort of sexual addiction or sexual problems. They were all emotionally and physically abused as children...so I guess he thought it was okay for his kids or something.
I was thinking more about this and I remember when I first discovered pornographic material I was intensely interested/obsessed..but I had a very serious aversion and extreme disgust to seeing actual pornography. I did not view pornographic material with actual real human bodies until I was...
I ended up asking a trustworthy relative of mine if they ever saw any alarming interaction between me and others (and a few specific people). For the most part they said they didn't have any distinct memories. This did help me feel a little better, but I still question having violent/sexual...
Thank you everyone who has responded. It means a lot to me that people are out there that will listen and reply. I've been trying to get into contact with a therapist for a few months. I've been gradually getting this instinctive feeling since this past fall. I am hoping that I can be placed...
Okay, so first off I have no clear memories of the abuse occurring. I actually have what I would consider a fairly excellent memory. I can remember lots of detailed things/moments going back as far as before being potty-trained and learning to be potty-trained. My issue comes in that looking...