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I've found the group very supportive in creating space for me to let go of old ways that don't serve me. A breakthrough I got in group was that people don't hate or want to kill me. But that doesn't mean they want to be around me--I think I still have an overwhelming/overwhelmed aura to me. But...

Thank you for sharing this. I totally relate. I found a self-help support group that has taken me a long way in coming to terms and acceptance around this but the essential reality seems to still be the same. My default seems to be isolation, which I don't engage in anymore, but the compulsion...

I've always thought of myself as a natural meditator. I can sit for long periods of time silent. I don't require silence. I feel like it could be a form of physical dissociation. Am I really relaxed and peaceful, or so comprehensively freaked out that I can physically shut down at will? It's...

thank you for this, i feel understood! thanks to my support system i think it won't escalate. i think i do all the inner work so it doesn't escalate. i do understand most times that his issues aren't an attack on me. but they feel like it sometimes.

I totally relate to this. The feeling that I don't exist or shouldn't exist.

Wow, thank you for sharing this.

I'm looking around at other options. But at some point I want to face the issue and heal, if possible

I have a housemate who really triggers me with his laugh and the noises he makes watching tv and playing video games. I really, really hate his loud, environment-shattering laugh. The cues literally prompt me to physically prepare to defend my life. That's what it feels like. I don't like...

I'm glad to see there is an "undiagnosed" label for people available here. I was scared I would be blocked for not having a professional diagnosis. I never really know where to go and feel unwelcome in most places. Just looking for people who understand. My background--from my perspective--is...