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Your journey sounds like it's in the right direction, even if it's hard and exhausting. After our female parts came out, we learned...

Hey ecdysis, I'm short on words generally atm but just wanted to say there's an incredible resource on DID/OSDD on YouTube by the CTAD...

I read it, but didn’t respond as didn’t know what you wanted, and didn’t want to provide a response that wasn’t helpful. i See that you...

It still affects me deeply. I'm so glad I'm in therapy and my therapist has been helping. The more I talk with her about it, the I can...

I'm sorry for what's been a traumatic experience.. it's great you're in therapy and have music to help you also - i relate to this...

An inner ‘feeling’ that something incredibly awful has happened, without any memory of it, can be typical of extreme trauma. But it can...

i dissociated all the way to "trauma induced amnesia." i'm a childhood prostitution survivor and i blocked memory of my entire...

So I know people can have memory gaps and this is typical especially in childhood trauma but I have absolutely no evidence or indication...

Hi @bluerainbow, I don't think you're alone with this, but perhaps it's less common... I don't have exactly this experience but maybe...

I suspect the reason you're searching for a potential COCSA label is the same reason I went searching when I got stealthed, which before...

Whether she was acting out her own abuse and conditioning or not, it was abuse for you as were too young to understand and choose, and...

I don't think an age difference has anything to do with it. The child who did things to me was my age, and I classify that as abuse...

Hi @fallout6 , welcome to the forum. I don’t know much about that kind of experience but there was a thread recently called COCSA...

I was about 40 when I got this realization. I’m in my 60’s now. It’s hard to believe it’s been all these years . You might try...

I think this is a normal dissociative response...

I'm just now seeing this as I haven't visited this website since I first posted as I didn't want to think about it again. I felt I had...

I just want to say how helpful this was for my self-doubting. Thinking as if one of my best friends told me what I go through, but as if...

It is beyond strange for me to have been in two or so threads by now already, and everything I bring up, I have people who understand...

Thanks @Weemie and @Sideways ... that's helpful... Yes somehow I feel more trusting of this site than others, and perhaps that's...

I've never found a benefit out of using them! It's actually come to my attention that I might be misdiagnosed with DDNOS, so that might...

I’m still using both Joplin and Antar, and they’re extremely helpful to me. They’re super easy to use, and help me communicate with my...

@Weemie @Sideways can I ask how using these apps is going for you both now a few months down the line? If you're still using them...

Exactly! And since intimacy is/was triggering ... well, it explains it all! It was however not triggering this time? I just needed to...

Normal in the sense that PTSD flags the innocuous as life threatening, and then diverts the same kind of energy/focus we would give to...

I understand it now. It's intimacy. That was a much needed reframe @Friday, thank you.

That's it. I'm changing the narrative on this. Last time I mentioned it to a pdoc, he labelled it psychosis and gave me antipsychotics...

Hm interesting. I was infact feeling fed up with being there (AA meeting). Angry. So anger -> talked to/approached. There's something...

I think it’s fairly normal to recall interesting or troubling people to mind, after contact with them… but the added oomph! of breathing...

I was at a Zoom meeting this evening, after the meeting a woman talks to me directly, just saying, it's nice to see me. All good, but I...

I feel like there may be ALOT to unpack for you with your family and the dynamics you lived in growing up... how certain religious...

I think you really hit something in my brain with this. I was always gaslit a lot especially growing up in a religious household. Which...