Recent content by BethRSA

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    Am I Just Avoiding or Is This Legit?

    So, I wanted to go back to get my Master's Degree. I applied and was accepted at University A. I'm supposed to start next week. It's a distance programme, but I have to go for 3 weeks 3 times a year. It's about 5 hours away from home. I haven't paid yet. While I was waiting, I lost the...
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    Just when I think I am fine… Shocked by getting triggered, and my reaction to being triggered.

    I was on this forum quite regularly about 11-13 years ago before I got married and moved to Zambia. Most of the time, I am OK. But then, suddenly I can be triggered and that shocks me. Case in point--Last Sunday, my husband, his daughter and our granddaughter were together in the car. A drunk...
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    I'm Still Here!

    Hi my friends from long ago. I just got a reminder about the forum. I'm fine here in Zambia. So much has happened. "Our" daughter got married in August. In my mind, there are no " " around the our, but since I just got married a bit more than 3 years ago, the "our" is there in everyone else's...
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    Trying To Plan Our Wedding-- Stress

    79 days to go! May 20 is the date! My friend will be the officiant for us--after so much hassle. I still have nightmares that something will go wrong and we won't get married, but Stephen calms me down--from afar. I worry about my dad walking me down the aisle and then saying, "No"--even though...
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    Trying To Plan Our Wedding-- Stress

    I had a GREAT time at our missions' international headquarters for the past 2 weeks. I was worried that they wouldn't be supportive or encouraging, but found encouragement, ideas and help! (Usually, I try to prepare myself for the worst that can happen. Then, when that doesn't happen, I'm...
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    Trying To Plan Our Wedding-- Stress

    Well, I got our engagement announcement in the local paper--one of the things my mom was bugging me about since the moment she heard we were engaged. Then, this lady at church yesterday just had to say, "Oh, your fiance is only coming in April? Wow! You've been apart for a long time. Don't you...
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    Trying To Plan Our Wedding-- Stress

    In my head, I know that even good stress is still stress. Sometimes, though I thought that I was/am "fine" after my PTSD from my gang rape/pregnancy/miscarriage. I'm struggling to decide things. I feel so alone--because Stephen is so far away in Africa. I need to have everything planned before...
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    Stephen And Beth

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    Hello Everyone. PTSD Sufferer. Iraq Vet

    Hi Aaron! Welcome to the forum. Thanks for your service. I'm sorry that it gave you PTSD. You'll find many vets here. Read, listen and post as you feel able to learn and grow. See you around. Beth
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    Hello...My Life, My Story - PTSD From Assault

    Welcome Honda70, I'm glad that you found us, but so sorry that your trust was abused in such a terrible way. No matter what you did or didn't do after the assault, it is NOT your fault. I know first hand the ways that we (sexual assault survivors) find all kinds of reasons to blame...
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    Happy New Year 2010

    Happy New Year! Although I'm sick with flu, other areas of life are looking up. My boyfriend S (I'm still getting used to saying that :) isn't here, but he's thought of lots. Maybe in 2010...
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    Big Big Thank You For The Party Last Night

    Thanks for having the idea and organising the party! Even though my server went down 3 times and the forum listed me as [undefined]--that we blamed ISH for, it was fun. Thanks for listening to my new love story!
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    Happy Birthday Anthony

    Happy Birthday Anthony! Enjoy it and every day with your beautiful wife!
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    Academic Achievement!

    Great JA--so proud of you! Glad that you showed yourself (and others) that you can do it. Looking forward to encouraging you through the next degree. (hugs) Beth
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    Happy Birthday Estelle

    Happy Birthday! Have a GREAT day!