Bigmess

As someone who feel like they have to be 100% presentable, covered up and clean or else feels extremely disgusting I relate to this a...

I have in my life only had a couple relationships, during both of these (one of which was in my later teens and one in the past couple...

That would send me into high alert into the next day, after something like that I don't think I'd even be able to sleep. Thankfully...

A couple of months ago I was asleep in the bedroom and I woke up to hear J talking to someone in the living room. His voice was calm so...

I know exactly how you feel there, very little things can set me off into isolation again. when I'm out around others I always feel like...

Older thread but I just checked this forum, yes this is what happens with me. It's sometimes hard to tell them apart. When I'm really...

It's extremely unlikely if you got a new phone and number that they would be able to as well as if you use different usernames and...

Exactly my dreams are alsways even if not complete flash backs always have the background of dread and intense sorrow. I have to wake up...

nightmares that leave me adrenaline laden and sweating and having tremors are the norm. Maybe two or three times a month now, often all...

@Bigmess thanks for the compliment. There is a feeling that the relationship between the size of a crowd and the potential for chaos...

You explained this very well, I get paranoid but I don' think everyone is specifically out to get me but they're all possibly so...

I wouldn't say everyone or anyone is "out to get me". That requires that they have a plan and are in the process of using it to"get" me...

Thank you @Defaultxlove I know I’m making progress so I just need to continue to be gentle with myself. That’s exactly what it is...

You just brought up where I think many people get caught up, they go for the whip but there's another more gentle way that may also...

I know the exact feeling you're talking about it, is almost like it's own emotion and I been feeling it in long multi day episodes for...

Most days, I get up and drag myself through the day, working during the week from home and often doing some sort of volunteer work and...

You are not alone at all as this is also trend in my life that manifests in so many ways. Getting through this mess of complex...

I was actually just thinking about this general topic as I just had an encounter with a certain person and against my will completely...

I do not get much of that but when I do my ideal day is a nice summer, going for some walks, enjoying some music, working on some...

this is so good. thank you <3 thank you for your whole post. I am low on words but it means a lot to me and Ill come back to it

This is actually just how a lot of mine go, I don't rememeber my dreams too often but I always have one's like this when I do. Dreams...

Wow! Thank you! This is exactly how I feel. My friends talk about buying a house and I look at them with a blank stare. Like what? It...

I'm also an age regress-er, it feels like I have 2 people in my body. One does the hard, ruthless work of driving my life and I'm just a...

Yeah that's what I found too, it's like I don't have the correct emotional responses and the one's that are there are extremely self...

For me, I have re-framed that feeling. Now that I know that complex emotion processing just either doesn't work properly, it makes...

Now that gross example I feel all too well, it's almost like always throws the most crap your way when you need it the least in the...

my god, the original question is how do you define extreme anxiety and i guess I have to change my answer. I said awhile back that...

@Friday I have been on the long term opiates fiasco too, happily I have had corrective surgeries and treatments that have made them...

This for me.

Everyone lives and learns and I practice forgiveness as much as I can. That's actually what my story was like too, the cross section...

I started going outside more often every day for a walk if not just to go to the store regardless of how things are out there every day...

I don't think I have, mine isn't the sharpest either but as of now I didn't know about that accomplishments topic.

I know I’m replying to myself @Freddyt … but it’s only just now occurred to me, because of your Q about cooking for yourself… that this...

That seems to be what I'm finding. Once I cook and eat its not far to a shower and getting on with my day. Especially days like...

Cooking for myself and nutrition are actually some of my favorite things to focus on in my life. Cooking once you learn the basics is...

I understand. This alone can be exhausting as well as wondering if there will be a fight I'm so glad! There is a nutritional healing...

Hiya, if you click on the top left menu button then hit "your threads" you'll find your threads.

It's baffling how counter productive it is though because being more non-verbal and less expressive when your in front of the person...

in my case, with considerable wonder if i'm summarizing correctly, the psycho tick has been treated like a symptom more than a...

Yep. Exposed. Exposed. Exposed. Exposed. Find cover!!! Nope. Different catalyst.

Yes it alone helps a lot to have people to relate to since I can't find anywhere else full of people with the same issues in general...

Trust is extremely difficult, I'm always open to having a friendly talk with someone as long as they don't come on way too strong for me...

I was digging through this forum and found some other threads that touched on this topic but nothing recent. Does anyone else when they...

I'm just like this actually, my aggression is the only thing that helps me survive. Relentless attention to detail and control over...

I work with the public, the amount of times people gave me looks or got creeped out cause my moves got a bit more robotic and/or my...

I just remembered I made a profile here and can't remember what I last posted but I decided to come back because my CPTSD is completely...