brat17

Well, many depressions are manageable. And I know folks who have had depression and don't anymore. I get what you're saying, though...

Unfortunately that’s a fantasy. Understandable! But logically impossible. I think perhaps changing your statement to, “Not existing...

Im so sorry. That sucks. Im so glad you caught it before it was worse. Sending hugs and wishing you a speedy recovery. I also agree...

Oh Noooooo! Holy crap!!! Glad you caught the stone before your vacation though. You might have c-dif from the operation, my ex got it...

I'm supposed to be on vacation. I planned for weeks cleaning, setting up appointments I'd been skipping for months, planning for my...

I really appreciate the support, @Friday. I'm just not getting that in other places. I think pain is a complicated thing for me...

Hm...I had a horrible week at school (got through it, and this week is just sort of a wrap-up. Actually, program will be DONE on the...

Well, not sure that is wrong. A lot of people do that; I've always done that. And I've always been told that being true to...

@CoolBreezeonahotday , that is sort of how I feel and what I am saying. I do feel heard but only by very few. Those are the ones I will...

Thank you @brat17 . Well I guess it is also unfair to expect others to empathize, or care to, and they have their own worries and fears...

I'm the same. I am honest and smart to a fault.

Rosebud it doesn't come naturally to me at all. In my family, I have always been the fixer. Others could always count on me to jump in...

I couldn't play dumb if I had a gun to my head. Or play weak either, no matter how weak I am. But it is true, from what I know also...

My mom, who is 87 and smarter than I will ever be, says, "Play dumb. It's amazing how much nicer people are when you do and how much...

Idk @whiteraven . But I feel more or less the same. Minus having the cats or a mom, lol. I got and was used up, abused, disregarded...

Not to be argumentative but blah sounds like boredom and negativity more than neutral. Apathy isn’t feeling at all but neutral can be...

white raven, when you CAN stay in your bed, its a bit bittersweet. You discover the world goes on without you and never notices your...

@whiteraven thank you for the thread. I go in and out of that state you describe. How you describe makes me think of the word apathy...

@whiteraven, what I meant by positive is that you are "showing up" at least. For myself I have found that when I quit showing up, its...

Thanks so much for replying! This, exactly. With everything now. I'm sorry you are feeling the same, but I'm glad to hear I'm not the...

whiteraven thank you for your post. I can relate on several levels. Im 63 with some physical problems for starters. Also have...

This is way longer than I had intended. Sorry about that. Honestly not sure where this belongs - it has elements of anxiety...

1. Should I go paddleboarding today? Will the weather cooperate? 2. Hope my first day volunteering solo goes well, and that I return...

1. @Rosebud, glad to offer a chuckle. I really mean it though. I have spent most of my life serving others and making them priorities...

1. Thank you @brat17 . 🫂 This ^^ made me laugh. That's right. I think it's crazy to do that to someone, and not going to help if I add...

6. Rosebud, there is an alternative to suicide. Sometimes staying here feels like just going thru the motions. Not that I have the...

1. Got something done that almost blew up at the last minute, but didn't. Very thankful. Though I don't know if they will like it. I...

1. Too much physical pain today 2. Didn't follow thru with what I needed to do. 3.Gave my dog a soccer ball I bought for my grandson...

A holiday. Possibly a bit of an idiosyncratic one. To include some nice scenery, lots of food sampling, some activities, maybe art...

So there is an element of what Friday said.. but also, it's easy when you feel unsafe to look for a million reasons to validate that...

sooo...I'm in year 3 of emdr and it was a slow, slow, slow!!! process. I didn't think it was going to work because I didn't seem to...

If you are unwittingly blocking (which can happen if you have dissociation) then EMDR might not be the right fit for now. Or maybe...

She kind of sounds like a bad CBT coach. "Just try", "Just be"....CBT is effective for a number of reasons, but all those reasons have...

... I think you summed it up here. It sounds like she doesn't get it, and that's not good. ... I don't think you're lazy. You're...

My CBT therapist (who I meet with to cope with the experiences after EMDR) talks to me about my avoidance as if it's just a matter of...

I wouldn't say that about any therapy type in relation to blaming. You are literally blaming the OP because they said it hasn't worked...

EMDR does not work for everyone. That being said, it also takes time to get used to it and see if it's going to work. I've been doing it...

I have been doing EMDR for about 9 months now. There are a lot of variables to when it works best for me vs when it doesn’t work. Give...

@Rosebud, I could have written your first paragraph. Pretty much my thoughts exactly. I do think its easy to confuse bad people when in...

Idk @siniang . I used to like people, a big reason I'd stay above ground, and now I think I hate them. I have been used, abused...

People (cumulative) are awful, selfish, violent, short-sighted, stupid. Individuals are complicated, trying their best, nuanced, mostly...

I had a couple sessions and it did not work for me. I dont know why, but was like I couldn't tune in.

It would cause much less damage if it were a hand gun and not a semi automatic. I am not anti gun.....however, this 18 yr old had this...

The public school system in USA is being dismantled. The goal which the state has for a significant amount of the population is...

I think there is a difference. Suicide bombings and car incidents of other forms of terrorism are very sadly without borders...

The presence of non-binary children in my classroom who are given dignity and autonomy by the entire school and teachers who actively...

I'd be interested, too. As my other thread indicated, I'm struggling similarly. And what I've observed over the last decades, partly as...

In the initial aftermath of a tragedy like this, this makes sense to me. The grief and frustration is immense. But when that initial...

Honestly? I gave up on people 5 or 6 years ago. I tried and tried, but humanity shows its real face every damn day.

@scout86 , agree to a point. In the UK we've had bombs and using cars to drive into people. So people will use what they have access to...