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    My new partner did not respond well AT ALL when I opened up about past sexual abuse and assault. He is a CSA survivor, so I'm confused

    I appreciate the straightforwardness of your answer, and I think you are 100% correct. My therapist has helped me to understand how and why revealing these things was harmful on my part, and I have apologized in earnest to him for it. Thank you for your response. I found so much of your...
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    My new partner did not respond well AT ALL when I opened up about past sexual abuse and assault. He is a CSA survivor, so I'm confused

    His abuse and neglect was so bad, it was in the news at the time that it was discovered. Like real bad stuff. And yes, we are definitely at different stages in our recovery, this was just the first time I couldn't rationalize it any further. I have a trauma team I work with on a weekly basis...
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    My new partner did not respond well AT ALL when I opened up about past sexual abuse and assault. He is a CSA survivor, so I'm confused

    It was painful to hear, and I ended things over it. I just wonder if a PTSD response can trigger behavior that is completely out of character/from the reptile brain. I'm trying to understand what the hell happened.
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    My new partner did not respond well AT ALL when I opened up about past sexual abuse and assault. He is a CSA survivor, so I'm confused

    I started getting to know a man very slowly and at a distance (due to Covid), beginning in June of 2020; we both come from nightmarish upbringings and years of retraumatization by the world. My developmental trauma is pretty bad; in fact, I had met very few others whose DTD was as severe as...
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    Risky behaviors and cPTSD

    Thank you for your compassionate response, it was nice to read. You're right, this is not a one size fits all thing, I am going to need to practice more grace and patience with myself. No support system, unfortunately. My intimacy issues are deep, I don't have any friends at this point in my...
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    Risky behaviors and cPTSD

    Thank you for your response. I started working with a trauma specialist last month, but there is so much to deal with in my childhood, we haven't gotten here yet. My risky behaviors included: extreme consumption of drugs (every drug under the sun, unrealistic amounts), stripping...
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    Risky behaviors and cPTSD

    My behavior while at my worst absolutely haunts me. I am beginning to understand the toll that severe abuse and neglect can have on a person, but have a hard time feeling like I am still a shameful person for acting the way that I did. I released so much shame about my coping mechanisms when I...
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    Anyone else experience fainting or seizures from extreme physical/emotional distress?

    You were able to recognize that it was related and catch it before it happened? That's incredible. Everything that I've come to understand about this is incredible. Thank you for sharing that, it's really helpful to know that I'm not alone anymore, and thank you especially for the warm welcome.
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    Anyone else experience fainting or seizures from extreme physical/emotional distress?

    Thank you, and thank you for the response! Do you associate this with your condition?
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    Anyone else experience fainting or seizures from extreme physical/emotional distress?

    Hi everyone! I am newly diagnosed with cptsd and have been devouring Pete Walker's book. I'm a major dissociator, it turns out, and I'm now curious if my lifelong "habit" of syncope in response to extreme stress is a mechanism of dissociation. I've fainted over 250 times in my life and had 2...
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    Sufferer C-PTSD, it's been a rough week for me.

    I am newly diagnosed with cptsd this week, as well, and the emotional flashbacks have been nuts. I’m with you and here if you need support.
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