Dolce

Very much so I am trying to move w all my might even within my town. Have lots of "stuff" this also in part to my breakup w my Mom but...

One week sober. For me that's the longest stretch in awhile. Through stress and triggers big ones over last week I didn't drink.

Congratulations! I bet that was really hard for you, but you'll be so much better off for it. You'll be able to make it. Maybe some...

I understand this need to tell your Mom how she hurt you. I can very much relate to your story. It sounds as if she is narcissistic and...

Yes I would love to move. I do have barriers to this. I am trying to move within even my region very very hard! I am looking into...

Joey Little a lot of what you said made sense but a lot of what the other person said did not make sense and was about her. I chose to...

I don't know about that. It leaves scars I read an article that I wont share here maybe that was very incisive. Your son left you prefer...

I will try to stay no contact for as long as I can if not forever. I don't know. It would be very stupid of me to go right back when...

Im sorry that's the way it is. I feel the same about my Mom too while at the same time wanting peace with her. someday. I don't know if...

Do I? Thank you. I am not when it comes to my dysf family I think. I am forced into no contact. I did remind myself I am safe...after...

Life is short. Perhaps you should tell him you love him and leave out labels and age and weight differences. I am open to others advice...

I am sorry and thanks for any kindness..... My Mom also used this against me I think....it's a bias it's a label it doesn't define your...

Thank you for the encouragement Olive Jewel:). I felt discouraged on another thread here today whilst trying so hard! I don't judge ppl...

Yes I do. And I am having bad GI symptoms stress. I know I remember you that you have had a stretch of sobriety. That's good. I am...

I agree that abused ppl who say they were abused sexually..that's an esp hard one to come out with sometimes takes years are almost...

I want to drink today. I am about 5 days sober. Life is hard right now. Feeling judged and in trauma. Saw fam member yest whom last time...

Please don't merge it... I have continuing issues that come up and will with this order. It causes me hosts of issues from trauma...

I guess how to deal with it in my unique situation. It is a symptom of PTSD and CPTSD and I suffer from it....but also I have to I am...

If this gets moved to "trauma diaries" Ill try not to take it personally. My writing style I guess goes that way so I am not sure where...

I can understand in some way wanting closure I guess it is w your abuser. The reliving it part with the music maybe your way of trying...

I don't know if it's true de personalization but I don't feel like me any more and I do feel literally robbed of my identity and...

I was struggling the other day and maybe writing too much ab minutia or was it that I would say sort of that w the medical professionals...

I read this on a Saturday and it brought me nearly to tears because it is the longest most thoughtful reply delving into my life and...

I can relate intensely with alot of this, esp the fam dynamics although for me my stepfather, the drinking to cope and numb yet also...