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try to picture the Terminator in county lockup for throwing punches over a parking spot. Aint gonna happen, because it's a movie...

some of the ex-combat vets on here talk about being programmed for that level of response to threats, and the ability to concentrate...

doesn't really matter, honestly. I have said somewhere else in these pages that it is a date on a calendar for us (wife and myself) We...

read the link too. i guess I never thought I owed anyone any of those things, my problem is I feel like I am owed an apology if anyone...

I used to prepare for such things with conversation changers. My dad was a judgemental self righteous member of a cult like religion...

the Bob Fosse West Side Story type choreography, best lampooned by John Goodman in Always. Favorite actor that weighs or weighed in at...

an old piece of wisdom I have remembered since i heard it: I trust my dog when he doesn't like a person more than I trust a person that...

@Sideways NOPE. NOT a swearish rant. Threaten the life of someone I love, and your life is forfeit. THAT is what I’m feeling, today...

5 days of cold clear blue sky mornings, I could get used to this

watching my 7 yr old granddaughter play mom with her two twin brothers, 16 months old. She can pick one of them up, skillfully distract...

it happens so fast, how can i say if it was an idea that was thought or the words that describe the idea? When I am going to speak it I...

part of the traumatic event for many if us was the element if inescapability. I couldnt get away from a situation and it made it much...

I was eating lunch at a nice place in town when i saw that a woman had left her purse behind after eating her lunch, walked over, asked...

The thing I adore second best is the absolute s deadpan delivery. Best, of course, is “…lengthy consultation process, during which we...

Santa has his Master List out and says, checking it twice: "I've been reading all your posts. You are all getting dictionaries for...

Also? Double time & a half 😉 Says someone who would rather celebrate Xmas in July. On an island. In the tropics. So I’m a bit biased...

holidays are just numbers on a calendar here, but my kids are all married and have in laws that need the family thing on the prescribed...

This question frightens me somewhat. Immediate answers are that P lives for many more years and healthily, and the same goes for me...

Lunch

you wake up and know that even though it was a bad dream and not real, the feeling in your chest and the thoughts on your mind are real...

accountability. I miss that.

when i grow up i just want to be able to do the things i enjoy and shut the door on things i dont. retired, but far from sedentary...

I am the same. My trauma is compounded by childhood trauma so I was always 'sensitive' but not aware whatsoever. I just knew I was...

So many times i realize that when it is obvious that someone doesn't want to listen to what i have to say I have to catch myself before...

heard a referance yesterday to "magical" thinking as opposed to critical thinking. I am ok with magical thinking until it gets in the...

i set a routine as much as possible, try to use relaxation techniques to get calm and back to sleep when i do wake up, and learn the...

I miss my baby sister, my brother, my dad, and my mom. I never thought I would outlive them all. Still, I know I was blessed to have...

twice today i have had to wait for an appointment to start. first one, sitting in a parking lot thinking about the appointment and i was...

Hollywood and Blockbuster video store.

the best way to learn the breathing techniques for me was during bio feedback training. I gamed it a few times, learned to send the...

I miss the debate about what this country was. A lifetime of thoughtfully developed opinions and insight and observation all for naught...

I miss what I thought this country was.

My body & my mind & my life.

The first line of the classic novel by Kurt Vonnegut about PTSD has always been my lifeline to another mind that understands what is...

I miss genuine laughter with a kindred spirit.

I hope you get that @haleyquinn

that brief "glimmer" of what I would assume is a normal relationship with your past and the world around me. Had a few, need some more...

all the dogs I've known before. If you need a friend, get a dog and feed it, friends until death. dogs know. I remember and miss them...

totaled insured replaced

@Friday Olfactory triggers/flashbacks? Overlay faaaar too easily onto real life. the stink of a big cold carbureted engine still on...

the smell of Loma Linda veja-links or any other of their processed soya bean meat imposters. I don't even know if they still make them...

having seven or eight miscellaneous children at our house all washing their hands and eating peanut butter and jelly or tunafish...

believing that hard work and devotion was the path to an earned happiness

the ability to talk to a stranger without feeling like i am vulnerable to a pinata of hate and vitriol. they looked like a fairly normal...

Traditions are just peer pressure from dead people.

first responder. helping people that needed it desperately. I know that look on a face that says i cannot survive unless i get to a...

If i think you are lieing to me, i will tell you. But you thought i was lieing to you so you came to my house and convinced my wife she...

I never got a pedicure before I joined the USMC. Or drank a lavender martini. The biggest, baddest, motherf*ckers out there? DELIGHT in...

Gin, but only in a good martini and my favorite martini is really a negroni. Basically a dry martini that has campari in it. Campari is...

star wars. It's a western with ray guns, a space travel movie with 100% gravity, all the time. On the real life to 60's star trek...