Givrali

Same message than in my diary I leave for now and have no idea if I come back, take care

ok I though about it a lot and decided that for the moment it's better to me to stop going here. I have no idea if I'll come back or not...

seems like diary isn't that effective on me (i'm more interested on how many like I got that read my previous post because past is too...

it's hard to say if the current one is the kind I need at the moment. What I know is I never tried to adress my emotions unless they...

I dont' even remember if I said it here but I have mightmare every night instead my usual 3 times a week its getting hard on me now...

Right now I just have to focus at calming myself. I calmed down enought to understand what happened : I was curious about the torture...

With moving alone came way too much changes. I'm happy I left my group home, it was the right decision. But I'm still very undecisive...

it'll probably be more suitable somewhere else, I'll look at it before posting

Not sure about if I'll leave this place soon. I won't suppress my access anyway. I'm doing a post in social part of this forum to have...

I read the thread about torture here. My judgmental voice keeps saying I'm horrible to read fiction torture when it's worse that what I...

Being able to cook this midday again. It's now the third meals I made in a row

hi daily night anxiety, I didn't miss you at all

Life keep going and I keep doing things to keep going

Flower

Treatment

Summer

yesterday I talked with a part of my not close family for hours then read things I shouldn't have. Today I'll try to start a life diary...

Electricity

I really need to rest today

Today I took a video and some photos of my flat. I'll see my aunt in few minutes we'll eat together then I'll show them to her ans...

Busy forgetting my whole life 🙃 I was very determined to stop going to this thing. Because it was bad for me. I said I'll end the...

I'm afraid of going to ergo this afternoon

I was busy feeling terrible then someone on social media said the Queen just died. I find this tread cool, I'll visit it regulary

ok thanks to sudden usuall night time stress I came from barely able to get out of bed to completely aware and sitting normally in my...

Break

Good

Nothing matters anymore

Rwbi

Feeling better this morning

of course I keep exhausting myself way beyond what's healthy, I'll have to learn to slow down if I want to keep living alone

Seems like anxiety make me think I'm a lot more exhausted that I'm actually am

day was hard but I'm in the right path

Hope you're okay @Givrali 💛

Feeling better after I laughed with a friend

my brain keep telling me lies, it says it's my fault, I'm the reason all these peolpe died. Logic is clear : I have no guilt in these...

ok i put down the blinds of each my windows so I can be safe at home a friend's going to visit me at home this afternoon I keep...

Better close my house blinds to hide the view

It's getting hard to look at my window without thinking about killing myself. I'm going to watch something positive and peaceful on internet

3 years ago my father died from cancer. Today I learned someone I don't really knew died from cancer. Can't think about anything but my...

There is no way I can living alone,I must return to my father's place. But he's dead since a long time now and the appartment sold. It's...

my mind is still in the past when my father was still alive. I can't be living alone, I'm living with my father. It's impossbile, impossible

I got and build up my creative desk. I unvolontarly triggered myself with falcon and the winter solider. I'm happy to have most of my...

Lot of adult stuff to do

ok I basically trigger myself for 24 hours in two days, so nothing triggering until Wednesday. ( also I can read about everthing in...

Hope that realization will make things fast because I started therapy at 7 and I'm 29 so it would be cool to actually make rapid...

Don't worry if I don't post here for a day or two I'll be busy and realizing that is big

With the help of my ergo I realized I don't allow me any positive acknowledgement because I hold myself responsible for the death of my...

This week-end cores and putting posters on walls

could the days may be less emotionnal or full ?

I would have a lot to say later about my occupationnal therapy because I'm feeling like my responsable is completely wrong about my...