I recently left a life of being absd by one after the other person. It was all I know and what was comfortable for me. My PTSD comes from these relationships as well as significant chldhd abs and trfckng. Please forgive I do not spell certain words our all the way, and that my writings may seem dazed or dissociated. I experience high levels of dissociation. I’m doing my best with what I have and am on the road to recovery and healing. I’m safe now and will stay that way.