Neverthesame

I view grief as something my brain, in its limited human capacity, just cannot parse correctly. Thus, I end up with all kinds of...

I don’t really grok the concept of “deserve”. But I do understand debt, and that how no matter how hard one works for something luck...

I totally relate @Neverthesame . And don't worry you express yourself very well! I think it has a lot to do with a lack of self...

Thank you. Agreed. I know this has been a problem for a while. The more I crap on myself the more I fail at things, the more I fail...

Hi,we who suffer from PTSD have an instilled Prosecutor which attacks us when we are most Vulnerable. Do not listen to these voices,they...

Yeah! It does that! For me, I try and coexist with these thoughts, get on with what I need, alongside the inner critic, a lot of the...

Yeah that's a problem I've been running into. I have to research this more, it sounds like it's a mindfulness thing. Might be helpful...

Why stupid? You were trying to protect her during a pandemic. totally Understandable decision. Those were the rules of the time. This...

deserve to grieve? ? ? my inner control freak loves to believe it has enough power to control feelings. but, in sad reality, it only has...

@Neverthesame , I do remember you, even if you don't remember me (Junebug). I am so sorry for what's occurred and your loss. I liked...

This is of course correct. Sometimes I forget I'm looking back with the benefit of hindsight. It's hard to remember that I didn't know...

Ain't that the truth. My inner critic is getting very good at coming up with creative ways of telling me off. And round and round and...

@Tinyflame I remember you as well, good to see you again. Thanks so much for your message it means alot that you shared that with me...

The idea of what we "should" feel seems to get kind of complicated. It sounds like you DO feel bad about it and that seems reasonable to...

You have a point there. I suppose the trick is to figure out how to get past the self loathing and accept the situation for what it is...

I don't do well with death. Probably no one really does. Besides I like to feel guilty about things apparently. OK enough stalling...

Welcome back:). I’m sorry about your loss - I hope that you feel as though you’ve moved through the grief at least a little? I relate...

Thank you. This is one of the reasons I'm back, been struggling with this since she passed. Long story short I think I shoved it deep...

Currently rereading Robert McCammon's "The Queen of Bedlam".

Hello again, it's been a while, about three years I think. I still recognize a few names. Well, good to see you all again. Where to...