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routine. I have some specific things I know will get me out of my panic quickly and the more I use them the more automatic they become...

out of bed (miraculous, but see #3 below) made / eaten smoothie taken a bike ride (yes... really miraculous, but I've agreed to meet a...

I also - every morning - wake to this. It may sound trivial but i must use the word agonizing. Im being tortured, by myself or...

I sleep well. The Trouble comes when I wake up. I'm immediately in panic-attack-lite ... "emotional flashback" if we go Walker (guess we...

Feeling more and more at home and belongings to my home

Anyone familiar with the technique of motivational interviewing? My addiction recovery program uses it but also teaches it to us to use...

I was specifically trained to do MI for a study I was involved in. I love it.

I was taught MI over a boot camp-style weekend, which I realize is probably not an ideal way of learning it. But I used it every week...

@fl14, glad to hear she's reached back out and is willing to meet. Everyone is different but I would maybe, for your own mental health...

I think , sadly and sorry, that it's best to focus on you now and not text her. I get how hard it is to not be in contact. But, it's...

I’d leave her alone. She told you she needed space, and reiterated that after your last text. If she is feeling overwhelmed and wants...

Thank you for the responses, everyone. I guess I want to tell her she's important to me and I want to be a safe friend for her in a way...

I agree with @Sweetpea76. Leaving food or writing a letter might not be received in the way you intended , or there is risk of that. And...

My advice, as a supporter, don’t write the letter or leave gifts on her doorstep. That’ll make it worse. Honestly, sometimes the...

Having read all this thread through, I have to admit, I feel more than a bit confused! You write lots about what’s happening in your...

Just re-read what @Sweetpea76 said, for “my” response. x10. Or as often as needed. Seriously. No way to say it better. IMO? Go to...

Just because she is the one with PTSD does not mean she gets to act anyway she wants. She is still responsible for her behavior. She is...

I left Mr today. I'm in a refuge. It hasn't sunk in yet. Feel a bit odd. Numb maybe. Been a stressful week, secretly packing and finding...

You will be ok! It seems that you are doing well and advancing steadily in your plan. Good outside help. Stay with the recovery plan...

I feel like I cut off from people like people don't exist because I see no one. I keep chatting with friends irl and online but some...

Greatest victory until now

Hi Katrina, I'm 58, new to the site as well, I am a very recently diagnosed sufferer of CPTSD and have had two EMDR sessions now, ...

Hi, I just joined. I have experiences of childhood sexual abuse followed by a physically abusive marriage. From the frying pan into the...

I have a strong sense of what I believe or experience, always did even if I turn it off (it influences my choices without me...

I wouldn’t know. My trauma history didn’t start until I was an adult, and I didn’t shatter until few years into it, a couple years after...

....and when trauma happens around puberty which is a big change in where we begin to define our "grown up" selves. I think for me -...

Impossible for my brain to hold all this information in one go to create any kind if comprehensive answer. But I've some few memories...

I think for many like me who had some of that sense of self defined in part by our trauma, that is the sense of self we remember from...

Hi @Jxnelle, welcome to the forum 😊 I'm 19 and I can very much relate to this, probably a little too much. I don't know what else to...

thank you for this. the links between autism and PTSD have been hot topic in my own therapy sessions and don't recall ever hearing this...

I recently realised I'm autistic. Am slowly learning and processing info about that. Interesing info on trauma geek Couldn't quote as...

Can we talk about autism and trauma? I'm having some new awareness that I might have high functioning autism. It's an area I don't know...

It i a frequent thing to have some of both due to changes in how your prefrontal cortex works. It's primary function is interrupted and...

I also thought I had Asperger's before discovering my cptsd. Now I am not so sure, so many symptoms overlap. The cptsd self-diagnostic...

Where the two intersect is something called Executive Function, or in the case of people with PTSD, Executive Dysfunction. Everyone...

It sounds like you suffered narcissistic manipulation and abuse at the hands of your boyfriend. Read some more about Narcissist abuse...

I did EMDR today with T and I don’t understand how I’m ever going to get to the point where I don’t think, I should’ve stopped it. My...

Thanks for the words of encouragement. My parents obviously left me to do a lot, I thought I had autonomy, the more I pull back the...

I hear you on this one! Got to be something wrong with us right? We are the common denominator, so must be us. But: not the case. All it...

My own trauma history is made up of 3 basic parts - What I did - What I didn’t do - What was done to me - There are some things that...

Hi there Charbella . Through lots of therapy I finally accepted the fact that it's what I was programmed...

The one the happened for 4 years I reported to the police. I definitely do not recommend that process, unless you want more trauma in...

hello charbella. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. your shrink's suggestion of spending more...

Blaming ourselves is part of the pathology of complex trauma. There's different theories about why we blame ourselves (eg. Because it...

I was sexually abused by lots from 5-17 how does one somehow believe it wasn’t their fault? I mean common denominator and all. How do...

Totally get this. Was also beaten through my teen years (minus the alcoholism) and believed I was fine, and forgave him. Did not...

Anthony, thank you for your kind words of support! The journey to recovery continues!! And thank you for founding this forum, it is a...

I'm surprised that you thought it did not affect you in adult life. That is pretty much the worst way to adulthood, an entire childhood...

Reading C-PTSD, Surviving/Thriving by PWalker. The book nails my experience. Looking for therapist who believes in C-PTSD. Suggestions?

Hi everyone.., I might as well just go for it right? My name is Lindsay, I'm in my early 30s, have been diagnosed with C-PTSD and...