Polyfractal

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Please pray for me that I can have the opportunity to be accepted by a psychiatrist who can do both medication and psychotherapy...

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I find it helpful to map out my systems to understand my trauma history and my internal structure. I don't aim for complete...

Each part, whether it is the alters or polyfragments, they all have a job to hold, whether it is holding a large chunk of trauma...

We did an internal calculation of the polyfragments that we have. We do consider them as parts, but more specifically, we have alters...

I have been professionally diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder in 2018 by a clinical psychologist and in 2020 by a...

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One of my more complicated parts (12 years old) has a space of her own internally which she designed herself as the place she wants to...

I talked to my therapist about this internal place and she termed it "the safe hiding place", so that was the time I knew what it is...

I also have a safe hiding place, here is the transcript of ourselves from a video we made privately: we sometimes wonder why we were...

I won't copy it in, because it's got info I don't want public, but mine is a large house. I started with the tree version, where you...

This is our detailed DID systems map. Anyone else has a DID map too? I am interested to see like minded sufferers.

I have been sexually abused by multiple perpetrators for many years. I had an abuser A, who molested and sexually abused me from...

I have added more details to my journal entry.

Always take the teddy! Congratulations to you for getting out of your major depression. It's very difficult, but you did the work. I...

No, I didn't speak and look up the entire time.

I have been seeing my psychiatrist in 2017, I was seeing him with my head looking down completely, I never looked at his face during the...

I continue to sometimes struggle with the level of empathy my therapist offers me. But one thing it's given me the space to notice: if...

If a therapist told me they’d need to find someone to guide them, I’d find someone new. Being a Guinea pig, someone they cut their teeth...

I went to a public mental health service clinic for 2 years, I was served with a public psychiatrist, medical doctor and a case manager...

Yes, I'm sure they'll handle both. Free clinics can provide a great base to launch from. They're also great for linking in with other...

Short of switching to a psychiatrist who specifically in trauma (which is going to be a significant price hike), this is typical of...

Thanks for the advice. I have been recommended to Spectrum, located in Richmond. I was told that they are free trauma specialists. I...

I’d advise finding someone who either specializes in DID or in trauma. Being able to do EMDR and having an interest in trauma may not be...

I actually have seen a general psychologist beforehand and she told me she is inexperienced to handle my case, so she recommended me to...

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If you have a good T nothing is taboo. It sounds like you are in the process of getting a new T? As you discover how comfortable you...

Nothing should be taboo in therapy. You may and likely will, though, find that some respond differently and more helpfully than others...

I saw her online profile saying that she has an interest in trauma. She also can do EMDR.

Not all psychologists can handle all types of issues. Some only deal with depression and anxiety and never treat issues related to...

It is hard to speak about this, but.... I have seen many psychologists and psychiatrists in the past, there were some good and some...

She just dropped down notes recording what I said and asked questions about my trauma history. I remember on the first session with her...

You have had it rough! It’s amazing you are here and able to talk about it some. I’m wondering what kind of a response did she give...

That is terrible what you went through, and I hope writing it out here helped. I'm also sorry you didn't get what you needed from your...

I have been sexually abused from birth until age 18. I was raped on a daily basis underground by multiple perpetrators. I have been...

When I'm depressed, I can sleep up to 16 hours a day. At the moment, I'm still needing 10-12 hours a day. It's hard fitting in life...

I sleep irregularly, sometimes at 10pm, 11pm, 12am and even only sleep in the midnight morning. I was already waking up late before the...

I’m not quite following the timing. What time are you routinely going to bed and falling asleep? Did this start when you began the...

at the height of my insomnia, i used multiple alarm clocks set about 5 minutes apart. when i set them before i went to bed, i would...

You spend the night in the hospital, or sleep clinic, wearing a “robot suit” 😉 (not an actual suit, just a whole lotta sticky wires...