Roland

Writing like this is so cathartic, I'm glad you were able to express all of that and I'm deeply sorry for what happened to you.

I mentioned earlier about a poem I wrote about being sexually assaulted by another boy. We were both 17 at the time. He was one of the...

What happened? I can't recognize if this is something I've experienced based on your limited description.

I wish doctors were more holistic and less locked into specialities. The whole body works together. Sorry you had a bad experience, I...

I remember being a little kid and trying to explain disassociation symptoms to my mom. I asked her why she said she had never felt that...

Welcome! This forum is an awesome place for support.

Oddly, I can use sign language when I'm in freeze mode. I think I'm just gonna force my husband to learn sign language. He knows a...

I still think a traumatized toddler reacts in an autistic way including the ways you describe but the research isn't there so it's just...

Welcome to the forum, this is a great resource. I've definitely found a lot of support, education, and understanding here. @arfie I...

Thanks, good idea, I will try that @Roland

It makes sense that you'd feel that way. Keep challenging those false beliefs:) Thank you!

I feel like that, I really struggle to talk about or even think about being hit and yelled at as a kid. If I do talk about it, I have a...

I am prone to dissociating as opposed to breaking down, at least in “unsafe” situations (like being in public). But I’ve used them for...

thank you, I went through abuse as well as an adult a few years ago, it is so so hard but we got this! Shoot I can’t seem to figure it...

Have you had to use them traveling? I don't travel much, but that's so embarrassing freaking out in front of people

I’ve used similar, it’s good. I have a ring of little laminated cards I got given, with needs and some emotions on them. Good for parts...

I had a red flag system. Red flag lying on the bench means No, I’m not okay, please ignore me while I sort my shit out. Was very helpful.

I've heard some people stare at eyebrows because it's close enough to the eyes that most people don't notice.

I'm a mom of a toddler and it's hard. Years of child abuse resulted in PTSD for me as well as some other challenges. Welcome to the...

I just wanted to share that I used a set of markers and a stack of 3" x 5" cards to make communication cards when I get triggered. (I...

I'm sorry you're deal with all this. It can be really difficult. To echo @Friday 's sentiments, you aren't responsible for his triggers...

Walking is so good for you

I could do with shifting a few pounds (and by "a few" I mean "a lot") so now that I've taken early retirement I've started doing a lot...

Ballet class! There I feel safe and the instructor and fellow students know I have PTSD and are okay when I have an emotional release...

There is no way to know that for sure. Manipulators get PTSD too.

I experience it similarly and I also visualize everything in 3D, I was exceptionally good at geometry and creating arts and designs is...

I don’t want to share details with my new partner. I shared that I’m no contact because my dad wasn’t a good person. I also shared...

I don't think it's lying. You share what you're comfortable with and when, an outline not the details. Even someone that doesn't like...

Yes, my husband can tell now because I usually talk or react when I'm enjoying but when I'm triggered I go silent/freeze so he can...

I think it depends on the relationship how much is shared, when, how, etc, but generally speakin or nothing is both unhealthy...

Sorry I missed this until now. That sounds great. We tried the stoplight system but I literally can't talk when I'm triggered. It's fine...

Have you heard of the stoplight system? Green for good, yellow for time out/need support, red for an immediate stop. That's a great...

Be very careful about people you meet in church. I knew a woman who was swindled out of her life savings by a “financial advisor” she...

When you need to feel unsafe to actually feel safe. 💀

Your car’s check engine light comes on and your first thought is, “I hate myself.” What even is that? Reframe: car is not me nor is it...

Exactly, it's just another way to meet people!

Very nice. That's encouraging that maybe I can find my future spouse on a dating app...you never know 🙂

Thank you to everyone for taking the time to respond to this post. I find comfort knowing I am not alone - though it is sad to hear. I...

I met my husband using a Christian dating app

Thank you for sharing your experiences and your feedback. I agree, I will take my time to weed out based on serious deal breakers. Your...

In my case he was (thank God) pretty much silent apart from the heavy breathing. When my mind decides to torture me by revisiting it...

Yes, during flashbacks I sometimes only "hear" various things said, or sounds, or I "see" various things/people/actions with sound or no...

I think if you can't resolve this with your boyfriend and get him to stand up for you and respect your boundaries then it's not worth...

I feel for you, because my recovery periods are only around 2 weeks sometimes a month, so it's usually unnoticeable to other people and...

My dad had rage anger. It was scary, and his anger controlled me, because I tried so hard to just agree with him so he'd stop or to...

I'm sorry for everything you've been through. It is possible to find someone with your Christian values. My husband was a virgin when we...

heh, I used to tell people, "I don't have an inner child, because I always kept my child out." I'm in one my stages where I don't...

I don't think so. It made me who I am, strong, resilient, tough. I sometimes consider people with less trauma than me, like people that...

Thank you Roland, I understand this as well. When I am in the absolute thick of it, unable to function, I also have this no idea what...

I've moved from not knowing anything at all about an inner child, to not knowing in the slightest how to connect, to trying to connect...