Rorster93

I would have saved his life if I could despite all that he had did to me.

Once you've forgiven someone, you don't really feel anything towards them anymore. It's not the same as numbness, though. You've already...

I have not received Justice and the lord did not bestow vengeance on anyone I know. Perhaps he is sleeping. ...well my...

Hi @lostforgottensoul ❤️ I was very inspired reading what you’ve written here - how this phase of your journey unfolded and the...

Something I try to keep in mind is that there are a lot of people who call themselves "Christian" but watching their behavior makes it...

It’s a trauma issue still. I am from a background of religious abuse and got the most insight from the reading the deconstruction of...

If Forgiveness is internal I don't know what it feels like. I bring up Justice because I feel anger toward my abusers that feels like...

That is religious abuse, and my abuser did that too. Forgiveness does not mean you let it go and allow it to keep happening. It means...

Perhaps forgiveness is not a one and done transaction. It could be a lifelong process like recovery, a component of recovery. I also...

Hey, not sure if this is too late. So the thing with forgiveness, is that by not forgiving, you're "holding on to it". This is...

My job requires I deal with the public. A man and his wife came in and was initially being helped by my coworker. They were calm and...

I understand how you feel Rorster. Tho my feelings are for different reasons, they are pretty much the same. Feeling like people out in...

Thank you. I don't know why things seem to bother me so much today, why my inner critic is so strong today. I was fine all week and then...

This is why I don't talk to anyone. People ask me all the time, why don't you say hi, why are you so quiet, why don't you share some...

Feeling low and disgusting today. My inner critic is constantly attacking. I have so much to do and can't get it all done, exhausted...

My abusive ex husband died about 2 years after I left him. When I found out I was at first devastated because I always genuinely loved...

Memory #1: I was early teens. My grandmother was sitting at the kitchen table reading grocery store ads with her magnifying glass. She...

Thank you!

You are working so hard and I wanted you to know I HEAR you. Confronting the things that keep you unhealthy and unhappy is such hard...

I quieted my apartment for a few days, no tv or interaction with anyone outside of my boyfriend or work. This was to allow myself to...

Yes, she is hard to see. Things always seem to come up. I am looking for another therapist but it's a long process. Scheduled to see my...

One day, my mother was gone somewhere. My stepdad and I went upstairs, I think to take a nap. We were under the covers, in the bed he...

Hello..I'm starting a trauma diary for exposure therapy and to also tell about my experiences since I have a hard time sharing in person...

I am so deeply sorry for what you went through as a child. I can picture you on the phone to your brother at a strangers house. I just...

Thank you for your kind words.

Thank you for this 😊

After reading the above thread, what I can say is you are very aware and are willing to work on yourself. It is a very brave thing to...

I'm sorry you're going thru that.. In my case, it's not really about his effort, I think he puts forth effort in diff ways..it's more...

Sounds like a good plan.

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Howdy... I was in an emotionally (and sometimes physically) abusive relationship for almost two decades. I have been free since March...

I get very anxious as well at any anticipated (or real) conflict) with an intimate partner. It was good to know that we can relate :) I...

Yes, it does. Every relationship is different, what works for some doesn't work for others. The confusion is, am I practicing avoidance...

To me, in a relationship it's really both people being happy/healthy and making little agreements with eachother about what works and...

I have a relationship question but do not wish to create a whole new thread when I already have this one. It sort of relates to...

Love this <33

I have realized that my support, whether pro or peer, has grown. It is more than I had before, which was just my one elusive therapist...

I hate agreeing with my inner critic. I'm still in the stage where the critic has not been tamed to be constructive. But if I am...

i agree with your inner critic on this point. friends and family are notoriously lousy therapy supporters because they are too close to...

The problem is finding peer support. The things I went through it's hard for me to trust anyone enough to share my past with. I can...

a most excellent way to view the situation. among the things my own experiences down this line provided me with was motivation to get...

@Teamwork This sounds like something that would be helpful for me. I read some reviews of it on amazon. One person said it was only...

This happened to me. Most people I know get once or twice a week help but i get every 4 weeks. What i did is buy Janina fishers book...

Thank you. This means a lot. I'm deciding to look at this as an opportunity to find new help and maybe this new help will be more...

Sitting here with you, listening. It sucks feeing alone. You aren’t truly alone, even it it feels that way. Major props for coming here...

I've been trying to work with my doctor but she is increasingly harder to see. I've gone a month without seeing her because they were...

Of course it can happen, and it is, I think, independent of trauma or not. You aren’t just four letters of a psychiatric acronym. When...

What is so magic about cooking for yourself when you are affected? The time it takes? Or the familiar smell of food? Or does it take...

It's my understanding that the saying of not comparing one's insides to other's outsides refers to pre-assuming if their life looks...

I agree. Comparing yourself to others, especially people without PTSD is generally unhelpful. I was answering the question too, but...