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Hi I want to clarify and say what you described pointed to CSA IMO and you’ve probably experienced it rather than anyone was guilty of...

Everyone should have access to therapy. If it’s a financial issue or you’re uninsured, many practices have interns offering reduced...

Couldn't agree more with everything written here...

I think the key for OP is that you didn't know you were doing harm on your little sister. You didn't understand that harm had been done...

THIS THIS THIS

This is incorrect, as COCSA, or peer on peer abuse, does not need a set age difference. However, when between two younger children of...

Hi @bluemoon_ I agree with @Mach123 that what you describe in your experience is csa... cocsa is not well understood at all...I think...

Hey Mach, Thank you for your kind words! I will be purchasing that book, thank you for the advice. I have searched therapy that helps...

I'm glad that I was able to help! Journaling is something I am definitely going to get into, I didn't know about yoga, thanks for the...

Hi Anthony, Thank you so much for your reply! Typing it and sending it was like a weight lifted of my chest. When you said it was just...

Hi. I want to just say, well done on getting this out of your head. That is step one to helping yourself. I want to quickly comment on...

So I haven't shared this with anyone ever and I'm not sure if anyone will understand or make sense of this but here it goes... At the...

I suspect the reason you're searching for a potential COCSA label is the same reason I went searching when I got stealthed, which before...

Dump the “friend”. I think you are missing the red flags here.

Whilst probably true that they were trying to get out of a restraining grasp, they doesn’t take away that you asked them to stop and...

Pfft. No worries. Nor your responsibility for others assumptions, inferences, or anything else. They’re someone in your life. That you...

Could you expand on what you mean by red flags? I am a pretty oblivious person when it comes to those. Deadass almost followed a man who...

Boundary busting, gaslighting. Not a safe person! Alcohol reduces inhibitions. It doesn't create. Meaning the desire to touch your...

LMFAO!!! 🤣 Great catch! I love it when I get surprised by my own bias. Seriously. In case you’re curious why I made that -possibly...

I want more flashbacks too. I've only realized this is in me at 42, after 2 decades of working on my mental health. I'm doing IFS so I...

Many people share your view. Here's my dilemma: Whatever happened, I was very good at locking it down, and out. The consequence is...

Just this year I got people to take me seriously enough for a psych eval. For decades the doctors just ran a few tests and told me to...

I find that my nightmares and flashbacks help me in my therapeutic journey as well. I also find that the information becomes available...

Actually, it’s textbook. The kind of twist injury + adrenaline in a person grabbing your arm, and falling skiing? Are virtually...

yeah, but hard to duplicate. And I don't know that that was the trigger. I injured the wrist in the afternoon, falling and twisting it...

For me personally, all of my breakthroughs have been my own making. I'm on my second counselor. She's the same as the first, mostly a...

My T didn’t do regression either, it just happened because of the the transference. She knew how to deal with it but she never...

Clearly, wrist pain, was one.

If you don’t know triggers, you can start with your likes and dislikes. Especially any dislike that seems odd. Look for quirky...

I got more flashbacks when I developed a therapeutic relationship with my T. I felt safe enough to trust her and that would lead to...

Yeah, this is crazy. People want to get rid of these things. My reaction to childhood SA, PA, CEN was to go hypo -- block or numb...

It’s sort of a tightrope walk. For you, it seems that you have discerned that their intentions were not to sexually assault you, but...

Why are you assuming K is a woman? For whatever reason, OP was careful to not disclose K’s sex. My take is that this is a dude, and...

Agreed. You need someone to bluntly tell you this is not OK. You should want better for yourself.

It doesn't matter what gender K is. If someone says no or stop. It's a no and a stop. The person that doesn't stop after being told to...

I’m judging here but I read your story and saw more red flags than just your drunken friend’s sexual abuse. If I had my way, you would...

It is VERY common for people who've experienced SA to minimize their SA experiences. "It's not as bad as what others have," "second...

I am sorry for what you have been through, its never easy. And yes i do have those fear and insecurity which developed from my childhood.

still no contact and I've been trying to move on but everything is still haunting me that I wake up with a palpitating heart every...

I'm 4yrs+ no contact now and occasionally it will pop into my head that I "owe my narc parent" an explanation. No I f*cking don't!! He...

You need to talk seriously about how thst affects you. Passion is one thing - acting out anger is another - even if its not toward you...

i'm all too often wrong when i guess at what other people are thinking. my mind reading skills genuinely suck. when i invite other folks...

or possibly she's saying that your level of trauma matches the trauma experienced by people who have been trafficked. I could see her...

Sounds like maybe she was asking you if you thought you'd been trafficked.

I lived most of my life dissociated until I had therapy at age 52. I didn't really know what it was but it helped me through all the...

Not unreasonable! I’d say it’s pretty nice that he gave you a response! Often my T wouldn’t respond to my emails at all and then in...

Oh the email between sessions thing! Many a page in my diary about this emotional saga! Many T's don't allow email between sessions, or...

So I emailed. He said if I email anything he'll have to delete it because of data protection... He was clear about his boundaries...

You didn't do anything wrong. You tested a boundary - one I'm not sure you were even aware existed. I guaranteed that therapist has much...

I think that is a great thing to say and ask. A T will explore this all with you. And really welcome this conversation. It leads to...