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“Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence.” —Robert Frost.

"If wishes were horses, beggars would ride" Scottish proverb. Meaning if wishing made things happen then even the most poor would have...

I have noticed that quotes tend to help me orient myself from negative towards more positive self. So here is the quote I'm using today...

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I know I have several things to be grateful for: overall health, healthy good kid, animals that I believe love me. But every morning...

Do seek treatment for your depression! And if you have gotten some seek another. Different things work for Different people. Don't...

And there the trauma-memory came crashing in! And now it's tears and a bit of relief..

This.. yes. A feeling of Apocalypse Now! No thoughts I can gather, nor any "problem"/threats I can deal with. Only this inner terror. I...

I'm sorry I can't. Of course every grounding technique available is good to try. But when this anxiety is stemming from horrible trauma...

So. I relapsed. In this again. And it's bad. It's coming in waves. And I needed to try to read this to try to remember that it's not...

Zanaria, could you please provide the techniques, etc. you used to rid yourself of annihilation anxiety, I am trying to help my 29 yo son!

Most likely, if you have ADHD. ADHD emotions don’t fade, like I’m given to understand most people without ADHD experience emotions. They...

Tnx. I don't know if it is a flashback... this was the first time it was this bad but my "trauma" wasn't anything like that so i don't...

@zaniara congratulations for getting out of it! OMG the suffering in this type of anxiety. I am so very happy for you! I feel like I...

I'm so sorry you had to endure so horrible things. Have you got good help with it all? I'm so sorry you too had to go such horrible...

Oh this was such an accurate description!! (No matter how many times I've tried to explain it I can never describe it fully. It's too...

IDK. I always thought once I started therapy that I’d have a big recall experience like in regression hypnosis or whatever, but that...

I always had this. I was tortured but I don’t remember much about it. I remember being bound. It all had to do with sex. Anyway, the...

I`m not sure this is what i have.. some things don`t seem to ad up in my case. But i do feel comepletely overwhelmed and i can`t cope...

To me it feels like my psyche is shattering into a billion different pieces and I am trying to hold on. But there is nothing I can...

Thank you. It was, but I am so grateful for being alive. It's really a miracle. (Only sometimes I get overwhelmed by the anger with the...

Yes, and I want to thank you Zanaira. You were the person that set me on the right path with this type of anxiety. It took some real...

Thank you for this. I am looking into this right now. It's nice to hear someone getting it but of course it sucks that you had to go...

I have gone through intensive trauma-therapy and come out "on the other side". (Life is SO much better now!) I've heard and seen some...

In addition to what others have said. KNOW this. Deep in your bones, know it. You ALWAYS have a right to ask for an assistant to be in...

The last time I had a smear at my GP, she did thrusting motions with the speculum. And made me sit on my hands. It felt like being...

Same name! I think everyone saying you should ask a professional is right because this is extremely grey area. Yes, it is not normal to...

I’m not a fan of the no gloves thing, but it does sound like she had a genuine reason, which she explained to you and did ask you if you...

It’s definitely a thing. Especially if you’re seeing someone who isn’t an obgyn in their private practice (which is what you get here...

I have no idea if the exam was appropriate or not (in part because no gloves, for me, is a hard no; fingernails are filthy, and if I’m...

Hi I want to clarify and say what you described pointed to CSA IMO and you’ve probably experienced it rather than anyone was guilty of...

Everyone should have access to therapy. If it’s a financial issue or you’re uninsured, many practices have interns offering reduced...

Couldn't agree more with everything written here...

I think the key for OP is that you didn't know you were doing harm on your little sister. You didn't understand that harm had been done...

THIS THIS THIS

This is incorrect, as COCSA, or peer on peer abuse, does not need a set age difference. However, when between two younger children of...

Hi @bluemoon_ I agree with @Mach123 that what you describe in your experience is csa... cocsa is not well understood at all...I think...

Hey Mach, Thank you for your kind words! I will be purchasing that book, thank you for the advice. I have searched therapy that helps...

I'm glad that I was able to help! Journaling is something I am definitely going to get into, I didn't know about yoga, thanks for the...

Hi Anthony, Thank you so much for your reply! Typing it and sending it was like a weight lifted of my chest. When you said it was just...

Hi. I want to just say, well done on getting this out of your head. That is step one to helping yourself. I want to quickly comment on...

So I haven't shared this with anyone ever and I'm not sure if anyone will understand or make sense of this but here it goes... At the...

I suspect the reason you're searching for a potential COCSA label is the same reason I went searching when I got stealthed, which before...

Dump the “friend”. I think you are missing the red flags here.

Whilst probably true that they were trying to get out of a restraining grasp, they doesn’t take away that you asked them to stop and...

Pfft. No worries. Nor your responsibility for others assumptions, inferences, or anything else. They’re someone in your life. That you...

Could you expand on what you mean by red flags? I am a pretty oblivious person when it comes to those. Deadass almost followed a man who...

Boundary busting, gaslighting. Not a safe person! Alcohol reduces inhibitions. It doesn't create. Meaning the desire to touch your...

LMFAO!!! 🤣 Great catch! I love it when I get surprised by my own bias. Seriously. In case you’re curious why I made that -possibly...

I want more flashbacks too. I've only realized this is in me at 42, after 2 decades of working on my mental health. I'm doing IFS so I...