Recent content by that_1_girl

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    DID PTSD Dissociation vs Alter switching

    Hmmm…I replied to this thread before but a LOT has changed since then. I have a few things to add. Since I commented on this thread I have gone of 2 out of the 3 antipsychotic-class meds I was on—still on an FDA-approved, moderate antidepressant augmenter dose of an atypical antipsychotic...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Fair call-out. Thank you for pointing that out. 👍I was not intending to exclude anyone by saying cisfemale, but I DO see how @Muttly felt excluded. Actually if many other parts had seen the title to my post likely there would have been immediate chaos internally…I guess me as a...
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    Medical ultra sound with wand

    I tried to reply to you a couple of times but idk what happened to my comments. Just wanted to say if it’s my thread about gyn exams that you are referring to, I’m cisgender female myself but have had many transgender friends in my life and am an ally so you are most definitely welcome on that...
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    Nightmares about people trying to kill me?

    Hmm…interesting idea! I do have a regular T and a Somatic Experiencing T for trauma. SE is not the place for that but my regular psychologist might have some idea about it…I was thinking maybe it was the stress. Also this comment is to both @LittleBigFoot and @osiris …thank you both very much...
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    Nightmares about people trying to kill me?

    I have had many in my life but 2 or more nightmares about people actively trying to kill me, in the last week to ten days. Last night was the most recent. To my knowledge no one has ever actually tried to kill me or been physically violent against me beyond csa. That’s another matter entirely...
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    Sufferer Daughter of a Sadistic Personality Disorder / Borderline Mother & NPD Dad

    Hi! Welcome. I have zero ability to diagnose anyone especially my own parents but according to myself my mother is borderline and according to her much younger sister who is a psychiatrist she’s a narcissist and if my opinion has any validity at all my father is definitely a narcissist as well...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    That’s actually a good idea. Thank you! Hmm though…I take 10 mg of diazepam 3x/day on schedule anyway AND clonidine extended release 0.1 mg in the morning and bedtime and my anxiety is still pretty much out of control and the ADHD hyperactivity is pretty much under control with my current dose...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Damn, I don’t like it at all—but truer words were never spoken. Thank you 🤝☹️😶
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 NOT the answer I wanted…however, **thank you very much** for the info!! 🙏🙏🙏 because I hate Hate HATE being under anesthesia and therefore defenseless *almost* as much as pelvic exams. If it isn’t too triggering for you to answer this…can I ask why it’s still a requirement? I mean couldn’t...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Wow. I actually have been thinking seriously about doing this very thing. Didn’t realize it even possibly could be seen as a form of self harm. I DO have medical “justification” because my bio mother *almost* died from not taking care of hemorrhaging during menopause on and off for years and...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Thank you for the whole response, @Movingforward10 :) But this part of the response especially. Upon thinking about it more I am wondering if it was one part hurting another—or if it was self harm. I am not really sure at *all* when that happened/when someone inside me—*I* as a part, I identify...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Hey :) I read your answer days ago when I first got it and didn’t answer right away because I went and googled that condition because I’ve never heard of it. Yeah I think I definitely have to have that and also the one that means “painful sex” because it ALWAYS hurts no matter what it is or how...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Hey, @Movingforward10 , I had the same thing with having to wash myself even though it was literally a tiny q-tip sized swab that went in maybe an inch or inch and a half at most. I can only wash myself with my hands when it’s urgently necessary and there’s no washcloth available. So I just got...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    Thank you, I really like and appreciate the reframe! You’re right and I DID NOT consent to the full Pap/internal exam and you’re also right, she didn’t force me. And I *did* ask her to do the culture because if they could give me a pill or medicine of some kind to make the by that day extreme...
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    Medical Cis-female CSA survivors, how do you cope with gyn exams?

    I am cisgender female (although I do have co-occurring DID as well as CPTSD) and a csa survivor…I have complete visual amnesia for everything csa related that happened before age 17, but I struggle a LOT with body memories, both external and internal in my lower body. Discomfort, unexplained...
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