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    Accused of being narcissistic and manipulative

    Me mentioning the stuff I did only came up because they were insinuating I was just using them. So my counter to that was pointing out that I'm not asking them to do anything I don't do for them or anymore than I do for them. I also said I don't even like asking and to me that alone says...
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    Accused of being narcissistic and manipulative

    I don't know how to describe this in a succinct way. I guess... I have had a few relationships/feeling out a potential relationship where in my heart and mind and everything, I'm trying to be the nicest person I can be, doing things for my partner/potential partner that doesn't benefit me at all...
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    How Do I Trust Again

    I have been let down by too many people to trust anymore. To me it doesn't feel emotional, or cynical, just pragmatic realism. There are amazing and wonderful people out there. You just can't ever know if you're with one until you're actually dying and they're still there holding your hand. Any...
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    Dom Violence Insight

    I found it immensely helpful to be told that even though I feel broken, I'm actually perfectly healthy. It was the situations I had to go through that were sick. They affected me the way they would affect any perfectly healthy, sane, caring, feeling person. It was a relief to hear that, as I had...
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    Feeling like I’m selfish in my relationship

    That's awesome advice Friday. I use my past trauma to help me be more supportive of others. I know what I needed from others, I know what it feels like to hurt, to feel week, to need to lean on someone, what stupid things not to say, what actually helps, that kind of thing. I'm awesome at being...
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    More sex issues

    That individual experience wouldn't be enough to make me want to break up with someone, but what it says about who they are and their feelings towards me would make me break up with them. That's a pretty clear sign of sociopathy. Sociopaths are very good at seeming sweet and saying everything...
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    Other I feel cold as pain. Anyone else have altered sensation?

    Wow, joeylittle, that's awesome advice! Thank you! I'll have to read that a few times, but you're very insightful and you write very well! I'm excited to try some of your suggestions! When I tried desensitization on my own I definitely wasn't going about it the way you suggest - it was...
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    Other I feel cold as pain. Anyone else have altered sensation?

    No, hadn't thought of that. I thought that was seeing numbers as colours and stuff like that. When searching for synesthesia and pain I don't come up with anything similar to what I experience. However, just from my reading now, I came across "mirror touch synesthesia" - where you feel touch on...
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    Other I feel cold as pain. Anyone else have altered sensation?

    One person I told about it thought I meant the pain was experienced like a flashback, a very real-feeling recollection of the pain as opposed to something I was actually feeling in the moment. Example - If I am in the shower and turn it to cold water and start going from my foot up my leg (the...
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    Sufferer Looking for connections

    Welcome! Just a thought, I have emotional flashbacks - they don't involve anything visual and aren't associated with any specific memories, I will just start feeling the same feelings I did during my bad experiences, and for a long time I didn't know what was happening because it's not something...
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    Sufferer 42 y/o... crap I hate this

    Thank you for all you did - you were put in impossible situations and had to do your best and sometimes that wasn't good enough through no fault of your own. But you also did a LOT of good. And you tried, with your whole heart, and that's so much more than most people do. It's really amazing...
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    Sufferer I am nothing but trauma responses

    Realization is really the first step. My advice, for what it's worth, is to really watch yourself. Get to know your trauma responses. Study them in a kind of detached, clinical way. Don't try to get better yet, just understand. I did this myself, and the more I did, the more I could identify...
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    Sufferer Lifelong PTSD Coping with Massive Recent Trauma

    I had something similar happen. The re-trauma was very different from anything I had experienced before, but the same emotional coping mechanisms worked. It also prompted me to re-visit my therapy for my past, as I found it difficult to address the new stuff without addressing the old stuff. For...
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    Other I feel cold as pain. Anyone else have altered sensation?

    I don't know how to talk about this without a bit of discussion of what happened, so stop reading if that will bother you (involves torture)... I had someone pretend to flay me (they convinced me this was what they were doing - I couldn't see). I had ice-cold, soaked towels placed on my back...
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    Other Can we talk about the intersection of autism and trauma?

    I am apparently on the spectrum (not professionally diagnosed, but friends who have been diagnosed and who have other diagnosed friends and family say I'm totally, obviously spectrumy). I have been through some therapy to deal with my CPTSD and from my experience the stress of CPTSD really amps...
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