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February 28, 2021 It’s the end of the month; and while most folks are figuring which bills are due, I’m trying to dump two decades...

I notice I do it when I’m having an emotional flashback and when I get home. Today, I know I’ll be clenching when I get home b/c I...

February 23, 2021 If my anxiety wasn’t high enough, I’m now waiting at the animal ER and I have to be at work by 11:00 😬

February 18, 2021 “The arms that held and rocked the babe also killed whatever good was left in me.” I started rewriting my traumatic...

February 17, 2021 Received some bad news this morning; my brother’s girlfriend passed away. She was barely in her 40’s. She struggled...

February 16, 2021 Fully experienced Depersonalization this afternoon. I assume it’s been happening for some time but never paid...

February 14, 2021 Gaslighting? I’m so used to getting upset and my husband walking away that I’m not sure if his reaction was...

February 14, 2021 How much more am I gonna be able to take before I give up? Yesterday, I picked up a few things for dinner. I sent a...

February 13, 2021 I’m awake and angry. I realize fully now why I try so hard to get others to like me - my mom never let me know I was...

February 12, 2021 Yesterday on my way home from taking my husband to work, I saw something green fall out of the sky. I thought it was...

February 9, 2021 On my drive home from work yesterday, I had an emotional flashback of the stabbing kind - neither of my parents truly...

February 8, 2021 I was at my mom’s yesterday, and we were talking about some of the friends I had in high school. She made this...

February 7, 2021 Feeling sad today. Realizing I’m not important unless I can: empathize, sympathize or provide a service weighs heavy...

January 30, 2021 Major meltdown last night, and like a slot machine, my husband showed some affection only to hammer on my failure this...

Thank you for the feedback. T suggested I get back on meds; I’m hoping that may help 😊

January 29, 2021 I’ve come to the realization that all but one of the men in my life are misogynists and think women are worthless and...

Ooh, I hadn’t thought of that. I’ll give it a try 😊

Oh yeah. Just like how "tremor" was listed as a possible side effect for pretty much every med I was prescribed for essential tremor. 🙄

Snow is beautiful

Run.....Forest.......Run!

Thank you, All. After reading the comments, it may be a combination of PTSD and Adderall - mostly the Adderall I bet 😞 But, I notice...

I constantly catch myself clenching my teeth. Does anyone else do this, or is it just another quirk I’m beginning to notice?

January 23, 2021 Is it so wrong to want what every, living being wants: to love and be loved? Is it so wrong to expect my husband to...

January 23, 2021 I’ve driven past three of the places I’d been traumatized. One of them I was forced to take pictures of because a...

January 22, 2021 My thoughts tonight have drifted back to June 12, 2019. I am at the courthouse waiting to appear before the Probate...

January 22, 2021 So, I had the last couple days off and decided to take in some cinematic drama. First up: “When Love is Not Enough...

January 17, 2021 I’ve been on vacation and reflecting. I realize that I have a lot more work to do than I once thought. Slowly, I...

January 13, 2021 Awake again at 2:30 am. I had a dream, but unlike Billie Eilish, it wasn’t anything I wanted, it was a dead-a**...

January 12, 2020 I’ve finally exposed the elephant in the room. No more will I allow the puppetry to continue. I see it for what it...

I feel like a piece of bubble gum stuck on cement. You scrape me off, and I’m still bubble gum, but if you chew me I’m poison. 😢😭

My T asked me to make a list of things that trigger me so we can try and figure out what specific events they might relate to. For...

January 11, 2020 I’m learning the hard way what emotional abuse looks and feels like. I’ve been subjected to it my entire life, but...

January 10, 2020 What do I have to do have peace when I ask for it?! Today is the first day of my vacation. All I asked was to let me...

I’m so sorry for your loss and what you’ve endured. I hope you are able to gain some peace and happiness. 🤗 hugs

Thank you for this. I know I struggle with shame for things I’ve experienced and things I’ve done and do currently whenever I’m...

Monster I am no princess I must confess I’m a monster In a prom dress I lurk in shadows High and low I can hide In plain site You’d...

January 9, 2021 I may have been sewn from the same cloth, and I may have been biologically born the same as most people but the end...

January 3, 2021 I’m feeling pretty good today. I actually felt some heartfelt empathy from my husband last night. I think he’s...

Sorry for my outburst, but I did a favor for a family member and I feel he thinks he has the right to abuse me because he paid me to...

January 2, 2021 NO MORE! I have been the “nice guy” far too long. I’m not their personal secretary! Stop calling me 20 times a day...

January 1, 2021 During my last T visit, I was assigned the task of writing about a safe place or object. I’ve always dreamed of being...

December 29, 2020 Im not sure if he lacks empathy, or the idea of psychology and the way abuse/neglect effects the brain is beyond his...

December 28, 2020 Looking forward to seeing my T on Wednesday, but dreading it at the same time. I know it’s going to be an...

Not insensitive at all. Thank you for the insight. I wanted to think positive even though I’m dealing with trauma and abuse past and...

December 27, 2020 Progression and regression in the same day? My mom and I discussed at length the fact that I never felt safe growing...

December 26, 2020 I hoped I’d get through Christmas without an episode, but alas, my hypersensitivity kicked in! I’m aware now that my...

I hope everyone has blessed holidays, and a wonderful new year 🤗

@ms spock you as well

December 23, 2020 Mamet with my therapist this morning. We discussed many things from the past, and she feels I’m progressing well...

I’m making progress. Thank you for asking. Still processing things and suddenly remembering others, but I’ve been sleeping a bit better.