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What do you avoid at all costs?

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I would say i m not avoiding anything... but my doc says i am. He also told me i was getting more agressive and mistrustful...
But i don't trust anything he is saying since he is the company doc..

If it is avoiding, then i am avoiding my coworkers and the whole department where it all happend... i don't like news and stuff on tv or radio. What i do try to avoid is getting irritated and angry... doesn't work yet.
 
Cleaning and dusting!! Yuck! Was punished and called too stupid to do it right. The other thing I try to avoid is large social gatherings, heck, even moderate ones. And if it is with people I don't know, forget it! Hubby now does them alone and loves it. He is a people person so he shmoozes for the both of us!
 
Have you written a Trauma Diary here on the Forums yet? That is a very therapeutic activity and has helped me a lot. Reading them is sometimes very difficult, but it will give you a good idea of how to do one. Welcome to the Forums, by the way.
 
I never thought I was avoiding but for a very long time I would say "I hate shopping" and avoid going to malls. I do dislike shopping but I've come to accept that my profound discomfort in malls stems from having witnessed a murder in one. Seems like a no brainer but as my PTSD was delayed onset and I had dissociated, so I really didn't have any feelings about the murder till I was triggered, so I didn't make any connection. I am avoiding being exposed to deceased people again (part of my job) as I'm not sure if I'm ready. I'm avoiding having to take on managing scenes because I'm worried I'll be triggered. I can deal with being triggered if I'm not in charge I think, but hate the thought of it happening if I'm leading a team.
 
I would have to say of all the things I avoid at all costs, are situations I can't control or manipulate to feel safe, people other than the ones I have some feeling of safe with, being homeless (would rather die than be in a shelter due to being gang-r...d in one) (sorry I can't say or spell it out, hurts). Being in trapped spaces (I got stuck in elevator once, it only too them 25 minutes to open it, by then they had to take me to the ER I was so hysterical.)
 
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