alienplantnapper
Learning
So...my person has been spending nights with me, which i like, which mostly goes well..however, ive been off work for several days now and we have spent the last 3 days and nights together and ive been a bit of a mess. .i try to hold it together as much as i can while he and my children are around. Its been really hard today. Ive been depressed and tired during the day and not really interested in doing anything, between the memories, thoughts, and flashbacks. Tonight we went to bed together but my mind is still everywhere but here, and i know that he wanted to be intimate lovey but i couldnt.. first time this has really happened in current relationship. He's very nice and caring but i suddenly got very afraid that he might be angry with me and i had to leave for a while.
Its at this point in most of my relationships where things fall apart ..
Im worried about how he has seen me be for the last few days may alter his perception of me and our relationship.
Ptsd ruins so many things.
Just more venting. :(
Its at this point in most of my relationships where things fall apart ..
Im worried about how he has seen me be for the last few days may alter his perception of me and our relationship.
Ptsd ruins so many things.
Just more venting. :(