littleoc
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I am about to graduate college (finished all classes and the comprehensive exam) and currently a certain event is supposed to happen tomorrow -- so I have gone back to a sorority house (it's very quiet and relaxed here).
I am feel anxious, but I can't place why. I was here just three weeks ago, and I was extremely comfortable in no time.
Yet, five weeks ago, when I first got here for a two week stay, the same thing happened. I felt anxious and wanted my twin brother to stay longer, and I wanted my mom and to go home.
I got comfortable by the next night, and for two weeks was so comfortable that I got depressed, anxious, and upset about having to go home.
When I got home? Same thing happened -- I got anxious, but also horribly depressed. I even wrote a post here about how horrible the house is (it's a hoarding disaster) and how uncomfortable I was.
Yet, once I got used to it, I didn't want to go back across the state to the sorority house for the event I'm attending. I'm currently there, but anxious.
I called my mom and chatted and complained about the mysterious illness I have currently, and hoped I wouldn't be here long. Which is weird because being at home is honestly just bad for my health. People on this forum have helped me realize that I should consider moving out as soon as I can.
Being at home was making me depressed. Lots of reasons. Very PTSD-symptomatic as well.
So, what's going on? Why is moving from one place to another bothering me so much? Shouldn't it only be one way?
I do remember getting an adjustment disorder (is that the right name?) diagnosis several years ago, along with PTSD, but is that a part of PTSD? I remember my therapist using that disorder in lieu of PTSD to protect me during the time of something that seemed minor -- but is that related to this?
Also, if you know how to diminish symptoms related to it, can you share?
Thank you :)
I am feel anxious, but I can't place why. I was here just three weeks ago, and I was extremely comfortable in no time.
Yet, five weeks ago, when I first got here for a two week stay, the same thing happened. I felt anxious and wanted my twin brother to stay longer, and I wanted my mom and to go home.
I got comfortable by the next night, and for two weeks was so comfortable that I got depressed, anxious, and upset about having to go home.
When I got home? Same thing happened -- I got anxious, but also horribly depressed. I even wrote a post here about how horrible the house is (it's a hoarding disaster) and how uncomfortable I was.
Yet, once I got used to it, I didn't want to go back across the state to the sorority house for the event I'm attending. I'm currently there, but anxious.
I called my mom and chatted and complained about the mysterious illness I have currently, and hoped I wouldn't be here long. Which is weird because being at home is honestly just bad for my health. People on this forum have helped me realize that I should consider moving out as soon as I can.
Being at home was making me depressed. Lots of reasons. Very PTSD-symptomatic as well.
So, what's going on? Why is moving from one place to another bothering me so much? Shouldn't it only be one way?
I do remember getting an adjustment disorder (is that the right name?) diagnosis several years ago, along with PTSD, but is that a part of PTSD? I remember my therapist using that disorder in lieu of PTSD to protect me during the time of something that seemed minor -- but is that related to this?
Also, if you know how to diminish symptoms related to it, can you share?
Thank you :)