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so i have had many flashbacks and intrusive memories and night mares about my father sexually abusing me when i was quite young around 4 yrs old, i have had flashbacks to my brother also and nightmares. but i really don’t know more about it or have any clear memory of it. could it just be my mind making it up? i dissociate quite a bit could that be holding me back from fully remembering? i have absolutely no memories of my brother and barely any of my father from childhood. it’s just scary and uncomfortable to know this has happened but i barely even know anything about it and it seems like it didn’t even happen to me , like i’m an outside watcher???