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I have been going through verbal, emotional and mainly physical abuse for roughly 4-5 years. The physical has gotten worse. We are married with children. I have found out recently, I am not the first woman he put hands on. He was also cheating for about a year which I recently found out and he ended when I found out. (With several females) I am in that dumb, but typical scenario of thinking it will get better just because there are a few days sprinkled in. I get hit in front of my children. Hit while driving car and he’s passenger. Told I should die and my kids will be better without a mother. I’ve been strangled, pushed, slapped, kicked, spit on. You name it. I’ve had it occur. Finances are at his control. Cameras with microphone are hidden in house. Idk where but I’m assuming it’s to see if I’m meeting anyone and telling on him. I am not a Stupid person. I know leaving must be done just not sure what to do. I am a stay at home mother. I fear him, financial burdens. (Im aware things would be court ordered) but it’s not enough when I don’t work at this time. I also am afraid of him having any type of visitation with kids. I feel like if I’m not there, god knows what would happen if a temper comes on. I have documented everything that occurred in journals with date and details. Not sure if that even holds up in a court. But I feel like it’s better than nothing and figured why would someone go to the trouble of making a diary of years of abuse if it wasn’t true. Anyone with any stories of similarity or words of advice.