EveHarrington
MyPTSD Pro
He hit me for the third time and I said enough. He hit me during sex. He hit me between the legs. This triggered my physical abuse and my sexual abuse. After the second time he told me that he would never do it again. He said that he hit me because his ex girlfriend liked being hit there during sex. Of course I said well you lied to me, you said that you never hit a woman. He said she asked for it so it did not count. Yes, it did count. The whole relationship was built on a lie. I don’t think I can go through this again. I can’t spend years getting to know someone only to learn that they lied to me from day one. Last time this happened (different ex who lied about something else important) it was at one month in. I can’t do this again. I don’t feel safe. The thought of being alone for the rest of my life is tearing me apart. I am pretty sure he already has someone else, so when I cry, I just think of this and it reminds me that he cared so little about me that he found someone else right away, and somehow I feel better knowing that I meant nothing to him. It lets me let go and not hold on to the pain so much. I am so ashamed that it took me almost 2 years to spot an abuser.
Some of his last words to me? You owe me the $XXX I paid to get your car fixed. It was a gift and I refused multiple times before accepting. I knew he would demand it back like he demanded all of his gifts back. He was so cruel to me. Every gift he demanded back at some point. At least I saved the texts saying it was a gift.
I am in so much pain. My good for nothing therapist hasn’t seen me in a month because for some reason she has an “emergency” every Tuesday. The front desk won’t give me an appointment later in the week because they say I can wait until my appointment the following Tuesday. This has been going on for a month.
I just hurt so much. I have nowhere to go for support.
Some of his last words to me? You owe me the $XXX I paid to get your car fixed. It was a gift and I refused multiple times before accepting. I knew he would demand it back like he demanded all of his gifts back. He was so cruel to me. Every gift he demanded back at some point. At least I saved the texts saying it was a gift.
I am in so much pain. My good for nothing therapist hasn’t seen me in a month because for some reason she has an “emergency” every Tuesday. The front desk won’t give me an appointment later in the week because they say I can wait until my appointment the following Tuesday. This has been going on for a month.
I just hurt so much. I have nowhere to go for support.